teo, teo, teo
daddy has his own family. mommy has her own family. where do i belong?
dear teo,
you may be young, but it doesn't mean you don't understand. maybe not fully, but i know you do.
a lot of people were expecting that your dad and i would make the ultimate sacrifice and mend our relationship - for your sake. and yes, i am guilty. i probably didn't try to the very best of my ability. but it doesn't mean that your future is not important to me.
i cannot stress how much i would want to give you the perfect, complete family. but who dictates that anyway? i would rather be in good, amicable terms with your father without us being together, rather than us together but always battling it out with each other.
as for me having my "own" family... i never said you're not my family. sure, i am with someone else now, but i never meant to impose you to like him. remember, though, that i promised myself and you as well that i will never introduce anyone else to you unless i am sure that he is worthy (at the very least) of your time. i know it is taxing on your part - i know that first-hand - but if you must know, we are already thinking of your future and how we will raise you. you are first and foremost my son, and whoever would want to be with me should want to be with you as well. i will not force it on you, but let me tell you that he is willing to be a real father to you. you may not see it yet, but we are working towards us being a family. everybody's dream for you. to be a complete family.
i am not closing your father out. he will forever be your biological father. and i am not taking away any right of his to be a father to you. if he does, that is his own decision, i did not impose that.
*sigh* you just don't know how much it breaks my heart whenever you say things like that. it makes me feel incompetent, unfit to be your mother. but i know you understand. maybe not fully, but you do.
i love you, if there's anything you must know.
dear teo,
you may be young, but it doesn't mean you don't understand. maybe not fully, but i know you do.
a lot of people were expecting that your dad and i would make the ultimate sacrifice and mend our relationship - for your sake. and yes, i am guilty. i probably didn't try to the very best of my ability. but it doesn't mean that your future is not important to me.
i cannot stress how much i would want to give you the perfect, complete family. but who dictates that anyway? i would rather be in good, amicable terms with your father without us being together, rather than us together but always battling it out with each other.
as for me having my "own" family... i never said you're not my family. sure, i am with someone else now, but i never meant to impose you to like him. remember, though, that i promised myself and you as well that i will never introduce anyone else to you unless i am sure that he is worthy (at the very least) of your time. i know it is taxing on your part - i know that first-hand - but if you must know, we are already thinking of your future and how we will raise you. you are first and foremost my son, and whoever would want to be with me should want to be with you as well. i will not force it on you, but let me tell you that he is willing to be a real father to you. you may not see it yet, but we are working towards us being a family. everybody's dream for you. to be a complete family.
i am not closing your father out. he will forever be your biological father. and i am not taking away any right of his to be a father to you. if he does, that is his own decision, i did not impose that.
*sigh* you just don't know how much it breaks my heart whenever you say things like that. it makes me feel incompetent, unfit to be your mother. but i know you understand. maybe not fully, but you do.
i love you, if there's anything you must know.