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Mondays are always so dragged out and yucky. Even, yes, BALTO week Monday.
BALTO is our big fundraiser of the school. We raise money for a prechosen organization that we feel deserves it by hosting all sorts of crazy events throughout the week. Some volunteers from each grade bring and sell food and other little things for donations, and we have assemblies every day to get everyone pumped up. It stands for Bring A Light To Others, and the double meaning is that Balto was the husky sled dog that saved lives by making trips to get medicine in freezing cold weather (or something), and our mascot is a husky.
So although today was the first day, which meant that people were selling everything from Jamba Juice to cupcakes to puppy chow to pizza and everywhere you turned someone was entertaining crowds of students, I still did not have all that much fun. Katy and I are both relatively depressed this BALTO week because we've both got all this social junk dragging us down. She finally understands how I've felt these past three months because Sam has officially turned on her as well, and she's the new target for everyone to exclude and make feel uncomfortable. And you know my current situation with Boyfriend.
All in all, this is just not the best time of the year for me. And I know I said that I was happy and okay with the whole breaking up with Boyfriend thing, and I was when I said that, but... I'm not. I'm still hurting and we haven't even broken up yet. He's driving me crazy and I know that I won't be happy if we stay together, but I keep thinking about how things were in the beginning, how much fun we had and how he got me through so many rough things, and I start to cry. Yuck, I'm tearing up now, even. I don't know what I'm going to do, because things really aren't how they used to be and he's not the same person I really fell for, but goshdarnit, it hurts so bad and it hasn't even happened yet. = (
But on a less depressing note, Katy bought me a cupcake today and Kate bought me a slice of pizza and Mrs. A (our journalism adviser) bought us a big bag of Hershey kisses. Yummyness. I felt superly loved.
Anyway, I'm out.
<3
Tiffany
BALTO is our big fundraiser of the school. We raise money for a prechosen organization that we feel deserves it by hosting all sorts of crazy events throughout the week. Some volunteers from each grade bring and sell food and other little things for donations, and we have assemblies every day to get everyone pumped up. It stands for Bring A Light To Others, and the double meaning is that Balto was the husky sled dog that saved lives by making trips to get medicine in freezing cold weather (or something), and our mascot is a husky.
So although today was the first day, which meant that people were selling everything from Jamba Juice to cupcakes to puppy chow to pizza and everywhere you turned someone was entertaining crowds of students, I still did not have all that much fun. Katy and I are both relatively depressed this BALTO week because we've both got all this social junk dragging us down. She finally understands how I've felt these past three months because Sam has officially turned on her as well, and she's the new target for everyone to exclude and make feel uncomfortable. And you know my current situation with Boyfriend.
All in all, this is just not the best time of the year for me. And I know I said that I was happy and okay with the whole breaking up with Boyfriend thing, and I was when I said that, but... I'm not. I'm still hurting and we haven't even broken up yet. He's driving me crazy and I know that I won't be happy if we stay together, but I keep thinking about how things were in the beginning, how much fun we had and how he got me through so many rough things, and I start to cry. Yuck, I'm tearing up now, even. I don't know what I'm going to do, because things really aren't how they used to be and he's not the same person I really fell for, but goshdarnit, it hurts so bad and it hasn't even happened yet. = (
But on a less depressing note, Katy bought me a cupcake today and Kate bought me a slice of pizza and Mrs. A (our journalism adviser) bought us a big bag of Hershey kisses. Yummyness. I felt superly loved.
Anyway, I'm out.
<3
Tiffany