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Lately, I have been fascinated with the idea of writing stories that don't end happily ever after. I used to hate character death, but for the past few months, it's become an interesting subject. You can do a lot with the character that is suffering from grief when someone he/she loves passes away. I mean, do they turn mean and lash out? Do they fall apart? Do they shut down? Do they get into drugs or alcohol? So many options are suddenly opened up.
Yeah, so anyone who reads my story on Fanfic might not want to read this unless you want some things spoiled. Then again, if you do want to and let me know what you think of the idea, feel free. Whatever, your decision.
I've been toying with the idea of killing Jake off. I had never considered it originally, but lately it's become something that I wouldn't mind seeing. The good thing is that it gives me a world of options with Kay, but the bad is that once he's gone, he's gone forever. I'm not going to pull some kind of a "he was really only in a coma and it was a closed casket funeral so no one would know if he was alive so he went to Mexico for three years without anyone noticing" type of thing. And another thing is that it lets me tie up some things with Carl. Since he is Jake's best friend, it would hit him pretty hard and I'd be able to have at least one sentimental moment between him and his foster parents. Just something to let them know that he doesn't really hate everyone as much as he claims to.
I already have the death scene written, so now I'm just playing around with posting it. It wouldn't be in the next few chapters because it isn't the drag race accident that kills him. Of course, it's interesting to read these reviews that I've got right now asking me not to kill him and to keep him alive, and I can't say "Oh, don't worry, I won't kill him!" because I don't know that I won't, eventually. "He won't die in this accident" seems a bit obvious, so I just skirt around the subject. At least until I decide what to do.
I'm really not fully happy with the story, to be perfectly honest. I hate the beginning chapters, and I still hate how long it's becoming. But I have some upcoming stuff that I like, so I keep writing it. And plus I would feel bad just quitting it randomly. If I hadn't been posting it online, I might, but since people actually seem to read it, and apparently not hate it, I would feel bad just stopping. And plus, I've got some things I want to think about in a sequel.
For one, I'm interested in finding out more about Kay's mom. I've basically got her character figured out, and I've decided on her motivation to abandon her family. I'd like to see her come back into town, and see what Shane, Wes and Kay would do. I've also considered following The Outsider's plot, and playing with the idea of having Coby hanging out with Dally when Pony and Johnny come by after killing the Soc. I'd want to see if I could somehow prevent Dally's death without making it seem forced. And then there's the whole plot of Kay and Coby, though I'm not sure how that would work. For one thing, I don't want Kay to bounce right back from Jake's death. And I would want to keep Cobra in-character, which would be hard--to give him a relationship and not have it seem sappy. Then again, I've seen it done well with Dallas or Steve and an OC. Rarely, but it has happened. I'm not sure if I'm up to the challenge though. One thing that I keep replaying in my mind is a substory between Ty and Tara. After Bob is killed, I see her getting a little scared. She knew Bob, they used to be friends, her dad is friends with his parents and she sees what his death did to them, and she's not sure how she can pretend like it didn't happen and stay with Ty. So they would go through their relationship bumps too. And considering how I've been feeling lately, I might not have them work out. They might just break up.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet, but I should probably figure it out soon. Not today though. I still have to finish one article that I didn't quite get to last night. Oopsie daisy. And plus I've got ACT tutoring in two hours--fun, huh?
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Tiffany