when your heartbreaking thoughtfullness enters a new category...
soooo. havent updated this thing in a long time. thought it was about that time. so as for me i am going to attend suffolk community college next semester to try and do culinary arts. mainly cause FIT blew, and i had to leave. also cause i was on a mission to fail out. which is no good. so now i figure ill try something else that i know i have talents in. maybe incorporate the two somewhere along down those lines. ive come to a turning point in life where i seem to be at a complete standstill. dont really know where to go, what to do. it really sucks. thats where ive spent the last year i think.
on the upside. me andrew and shawn are going on a trip to pennsylvania. it should be a lot of fun. we havent hung out like that together in god knows how long. but its much overdue. so there should be a lot of partying and stuff going on.
also i want to start playing music again with andrew. so i think me and him will be doing that more.
read a bunch of really good books lately. lemony snickets the bad beginnings, how to make love like a pornstar (jenna jamesons autobiography), LAMB the gospel according to biff by christopher moore, you shall know our velocity by dave eggers. those are all amazing... i highly reccomend those to anyone that can read past a college level english course.
as for my personal life. there isnt much too it. the one girl that i actually fell for fully is leaving for oneonta. i cant do anything about that. and we both know how we feel but think its best to not do anything now because of certain circumstances (her parents, hating my family even though it has absolutely nothing to do with me this time), she is with out a doubt someone you can call a soulmate and unfortunately i dont see anything happening with that.
but here is an excerpt from the book LAMB:
jesus is referred to as joshua in this book.
jesus is asking his best friend to have sex with a prostitute and tell him about it as it is happening. the purpose of this is to know what sin is like. this is between jesus and his friend biff, and the harlot.
"So what is she doing?" Josh asked.
"She's taking of my clothes."
"What now."
"She's taking off her clothes. Oh jeez. Ouch."
"What? Are you fornicating?"
"No. She's rubbing her whole body over mine, sort of lightly. When I try to move she smacks me in the face."
"How does it feel?"
"How do you think? It feels like someone smacking you, you twit."
"I mean how does her body feel? Do you feel sinful? Is it like Satan rubbing against you? Does it burn like fire?"
"Yeah, you got it. That pretty much has it."
"You're lying."
"Oh wow."
Then Josh said something in greek that I didn't catch all of and the harlot answered, sort of.
"What did she say?" Josh asked.
"I don't know, you know my Greek is bad."
"Mine isn't, I couldn't understand what she said."
"Her mouth is full."
The harlot raised up. "Not full," she said in Greek.
"Hey I understood that!"
"She has you in her mouth?"
"Yeah."
"That's heinous."
"It doesn't feel heinous."
"It doesn't?"
"No, Josh, I gotta tell you, this really is---oh my God!"
"What? What's happening?"
"She's getting dressed."
"Are you done sinning? That's it?"
The harlot said something in Greek that I didn't understand.
"What did she say?" I asked.
"She said that for the amount of money we gave her, you're finished."
"Do you think you understand fornication now?"
"Not really."
"Well then, give her some more money, Joshua. We're going to stay here until you learn what you need to know."
on the upside. me andrew and shawn are going on a trip to pennsylvania. it should be a lot of fun. we havent hung out like that together in god knows how long. but its much overdue. so there should be a lot of partying and stuff going on.
also i want to start playing music again with andrew. so i think me and him will be doing that more.
read a bunch of really good books lately. lemony snickets the bad beginnings, how to make love like a pornstar (jenna jamesons autobiography), LAMB the gospel according to biff by christopher moore, you shall know our velocity by dave eggers. those are all amazing... i highly reccomend those to anyone that can read past a college level english course.
as for my personal life. there isnt much too it. the one girl that i actually fell for fully is leaving for oneonta. i cant do anything about that. and we both know how we feel but think its best to not do anything now because of certain circumstances (her parents, hating my family even though it has absolutely nothing to do with me this time), she is with out a doubt someone you can call a soulmate and unfortunately i dont see anything happening with that.
but here is an excerpt from the book LAMB:
jesus is referred to as joshua in this book.
jesus is asking his best friend to have sex with a prostitute and tell him about it as it is happening. the purpose of this is to know what sin is like. this is between jesus and his friend biff, and the harlot.
"So what is she doing?" Josh asked.
"She's taking of my clothes."
"What now."
"She's taking off her clothes. Oh jeez. Ouch."
"What? Are you fornicating?"
"No. She's rubbing her whole body over mine, sort of lightly. When I try to move she smacks me in the face."
"How does it feel?"
"How do you think? It feels like someone smacking you, you twit."
"I mean how does her body feel? Do you feel sinful? Is it like Satan rubbing against you? Does it burn like fire?"
"Yeah, you got it. That pretty much has it."
"You're lying."
"Oh wow."
Then Josh said something in greek that I didn't catch all of and the harlot answered, sort of.
"What did she say?" Josh asked.
"I don't know, you know my Greek is bad."
"Mine isn't, I couldn't understand what she said."
"Her mouth is full."
The harlot raised up. "Not full," she said in Greek.
"Hey I understood that!"
"She has you in her mouth?"
"Yeah."
"That's heinous."
"It doesn't feel heinous."
"It doesn't?"
"No, Josh, I gotta tell you, this really is---oh my God!"
"What? What's happening?"
"She's getting dressed."
"Are you done sinning? That's it?"
The harlot said something in Greek that I didn't understand.
"What did she say?" I asked.
"She said that for the amount of money we gave her, you're finished."
"Do you think you understand fornication now?"
"Not really."
"Well then, give her some more money, Joshua. We're going to stay here until you learn what you need to know."