Time for a change... Growing up or something like it...
I realized I don't want to be the same old kid anymore... I don't want to blend in with the crowds and masses but stand out and stand against. I want people to see the side of me that they will say hey this kid is awesome. I also want someone special to see this too. Problem is I never get to see her... :wishes for rain: Thank you to Andrew for the rain. I like the idea. More on that subject another time.
I have been feeling down lately... To the point of wanting to do nothing. For instance, I have a really incredible chance to be in an amazing band. Yet I feel I am throwing it out the window. I also feel I have an incredible chance to be with someone who is the smartest person, and in my eyes, one of the most attractive and funny people on the face of the earth. But, alas, I feel that one will get thrown away too.
Lately, I have been hanging out with with three people that I consider to be my bestfriends at this moment in time. Margaret, Andrew, and Shawn, in no specific order. I just wanted you guys to know that you are the most important people in my life right now, and I know that I may be a dick sometimes, but I just wanted you to know how much I appreciate all you have done for me... Especially Margaret, cause I probably don't tell her that kinda stuff ever. I should..
I haven't written anything in a long time so here goes something...
Sunrise Yesterday's
By
Bryan
It's 4am
My phone rings
Same old story
I've heard a million
Times before...
She says shes lonely
But she doesn't want
Us to be together....
Why can't I
Ever see
What's in front of me
When getting is good....
It's 4am
I haven't slept yet
Something is
On my mind...
I lay staring
As she is sleeping
Miles away from me....
As we fall
Out of reach
No one's strong
Enough to keep
It together now...
It's 2am
I'm still awake now
Thinking about
How it should be now...
She's on my mind
Am I on her's
I wish there
Was some way
To tell...
And I'm feeling more alone now...
Really feeling more alone now...
She is feeling real alone now...
She whispers, and I hear a scream
Am I the only one that answers....
Am I the only one that cares....
And I'm still feeling more alone now.
More than I ever did before now...
She is feeling more alone now....
Am I the only one that cares....
So lemme know what you think of the new journal...
I have been feeling down lately... To the point of wanting to do nothing. For instance, I have a really incredible chance to be in an amazing band. Yet I feel I am throwing it out the window. I also feel I have an incredible chance to be with someone who is the smartest person, and in my eyes, one of the most attractive and funny people on the face of the earth. But, alas, I feel that one will get thrown away too.
Lately, I have been hanging out with with three people that I consider to be my bestfriends at this moment in time. Margaret, Andrew, and Shawn, in no specific order. I just wanted you guys to know that you are the most important people in my life right now, and I know that I may be a dick sometimes, but I just wanted you to know how much I appreciate all you have done for me... Especially Margaret, cause I probably don't tell her that kinda stuff ever. I should..
I haven't written anything in a long time so here goes something...
Sunrise Yesterday's
By
Bryan
It's 4am
My phone rings
Same old story
I've heard a million
Times before...
She says shes lonely
But she doesn't want
Us to be together....
Why can't I
Ever see
What's in front of me
When getting is good....
It's 4am
I haven't slept yet
Something is
On my mind...
I lay staring
As she is sleeping
Miles away from me....
As we fall
Out of reach
No one's strong
Enough to keep
It together now...
It's 2am
I'm still awake now
Thinking about
How it should be now...
She's on my mind
Am I on her's
I wish there
Was some way
To tell...
And I'm feeling more alone now...
Really feeling more alone now...
She is feeling real alone now...
She whispers, and I hear a scream
Am I the only one that answers....
Am I the only one that cares....
And I'm still feeling more alone now.
More than I ever did before now...
She is feeling more alone now....
Am I the only one that cares....
So lemme know what you think of the new journal...