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[queensmoot]

I feel like I don't know myself anymore, and I don't particularly want to.
I feel like everything I thought I knew about myself has been cast into doubt, because one of my "certainties" has turned out to be somewhat of a grey area.
I feel like I'm falling apart and can't find the energy to pull all my pieces together again.
I feel like I'm just waiting around for life to begin; why is everything so dull right now?