Happy St. Patty's Day?

[i_fed_the_pigin]

I'm in way over my head right now. I have no idea how any of this started but recently so much stuff has just happened involving the opposite sex. I'm confused, nervous, don't know if i should be excited, upset, angry with myself, and then all of these i go back and forth with. I don't know what I want or if I even want any of it. I kinda wish I could just erase all the guys that stuff is happening with and just find someone new. I'm going back to guy's that things haven't worked with in the past, guys that I know aren't right for me but I still give them that special attention, and guys that I have a image of and think them to be but I know that that isnt really who they are. This all came inro a little whirl wind last night when I saw just about six males that I have liked, that have liked me, that I've been in a relationship with, and/or guys that I wanted to flirt with but there were just too many of them. I acted in a way that was neither fair or appropriate for who was there and for how I was acting. Looking back on what happened reminds me that all of these people never worked for me. If something would haev worked between us then it would have actually happened the first time. There was something in each guy that didn't work, yet I still allowed myself to act the way I did. I'm just trying to understand and figure out what I'm going to do from here.

I'm in over my head.. over my head.