emotional spill ? Wha?
I don’t like being home. I had so much effing fun
this weekend. I really wish kelsy would just
live with me. I love her and brittnay. The night
I left me and my dad got in a fight and it just
sucked. He wants to know everything about me,
what I do, and where I’m doing it. I really don’t
even want to talk to him. Every time I do he
doesn't have anything nice to say... what's the
point. He has never really been like a dad to me.
Sure he pays bills and keeps the electricity on
but he would do that for my mom anyway. So it's like
I’m and extra in the house, I came with the marriage of my
mom. So my mom married him, I’m adopted and now
he can be like " well by law I’m your father and I can
choose what you do." FUCK MOM THANKS HOLE. I was so young
when he adopted me, I didn't even know what the word meant.
He has been so controlling and mentally abusive for a long
time. and his excuse is that he cares.. Aww no you don’t
or you wouldn't tell me that you don’t like me and I’m
bitch who deserves to die..WTF!!! And I’m losing respect
for my mom because she never stands up for me when my
dad gets drunk and picks fights with me. She sits back
and watches the tears run down my face and Slowly notice that
my heart is being broken from all these fucked up thoughts
of his Hmmm.. so I went to my friends kelsys house and spent the
weekend with her. Me and kelsys mom amy are really close.
we had a amazing conversation, I don’t ever talk to
anyone how I feel anymore and I finally talked to amy.
I tend to swallow my feelings that I want to say and later
it just builds up and fucks me over..Oh well
ill be happy when I can move out of this town.
PORTLAND I LOVE YOU AND I WILL COME HOME TO YOU!!!
I cant wait for my perfect thanksgiving, just me and my tai food
take out leftovers , In my studio apartment in Portland...ALONE.
with no family to put me down.
BUT KElSY AND BRITTANY WILL BE IN MY APAERTMENT TOO SO IM NOT
SUPER ALONE.
this weekend. I really wish kelsy would just
live with me. I love her and brittnay. The night
I left me and my dad got in a fight and it just
sucked. He wants to know everything about me,
what I do, and where I’m doing it. I really don’t
even want to talk to him. Every time I do he
doesn't have anything nice to say... what's the
point. He has never really been like a dad to me.
Sure he pays bills and keeps the electricity on
but he would do that for my mom anyway. So it's like
I’m and extra in the house, I came with the marriage of my
mom. So my mom married him, I’m adopted and now
he can be like " well by law I’m your father and I can
choose what you do." FUCK MOM THANKS HOLE. I was so young
when he adopted me, I didn't even know what the word meant.
He has been so controlling and mentally abusive for a long
time. and his excuse is that he cares.. Aww no you don’t
or you wouldn't tell me that you don’t like me and I’m
bitch who deserves to die..WTF!!! And I’m losing respect
for my mom because she never stands up for me when my
dad gets drunk and picks fights with me. She sits back
and watches the tears run down my face and Slowly notice that
my heart is being broken from all these fucked up thoughts
of his Hmmm.. so I went to my friends kelsys house and spent the
weekend with her. Me and kelsys mom amy are really close.
we had a amazing conversation, I don’t ever talk to
anyone how I feel anymore and I finally talked to amy.
I tend to swallow my feelings that I want to say and later
it just builds up and fucks me over..Oh well
ill be happy when I can move out of this town.
PORTLAND I LOVE YOU AND I WILL COME HOME TO YOU!!!
I cant wait for my perfect thanksgiving, just me and my tai food
take out leftovers , In my studio apartment in Portland...ALONE.
with no family to put me down.
BUT KElSY AND BRITTANY WILL BE IN MY APAERTMENT TOO SO IM NOT
SUPER ALONE.