I'm going to make plans to get this tattooed down the center of my back.
Endure all.
I
Fight to go on,
I
Must find a reason
For every minute of every day
To live,
Reflecting on my path
I sometimes wonder
What fortune
Has taken me here
Whether a blessing or a curse
I find solace in the fact that still
Despite each moment of pain
Each second of complete hopelessness
I still live.
Of course
There is pain
Never will I be free of it
But this moment
Right here, right now, I know
This hope
Is not an illusion
And every trial
Testament
To my strength
And I will eternally be
Thankful for
This chance
To be alive and breathing.
If you want a clarification, there's a lot of meaning behind it. For one, it's one of the reasons I find myself alive every day, it's a reassuring thing I've been telling myself when I feel overwhelmed by everything, and it helps. It's not entirely happy go lucky, beause realistically, life is full of pain and torment at times. But I'm here because of the past, not the future, and that gives me hope for the future. There are two Tool references, if you can find them. Also, the reason for the seemingly irregular line breaks is because, if you read it aloud, each line has a number of syllables corresponding with that line's respective number in pi, I know the first 30 digits of pi, and so the poem is 30 lines. It's not just pi for the sake of being pi, it has a couple of meanings for me. It represents the circle of pain and pleasure that is life. Circles are the epitome of simplistic perfection, and yet, still unmade by man, and the poem is in a sense, me trying to perfect myself by reminding myself to endure the day, and not give up. The tattoo is going to be in the center of my back, showing how it motivates me to go on, and in a sense, is my reason for standing.