Random Thoughts of the Mind...Everything that has been going on...
Sunday, May 15, 2005...
Ok. First Of All...
I FUCKIN LOVE SHAWNA, KENNA, JESSICA, HARRISON, BOSWELL, DAVID, JOHN AND EVERYONE WHO IS HERE FOR ME! <3 It really means alot to me. Its really great that you guys are always here for me. <3 THANX GUYS. I LOVE YOU GUYS! <3
So Heres How It Goes...
Well, I can honestly say my life is going great! Im really really happy. Tonite Ive bonded with everyone. Im really really glad to be alive. I can honestly say that I have been the luckiest girl in the world to have all these people as friends. Shit dude. I got a great gift tonite from SunShine Shawna. She gave me this cute lil belly shirt, its from Buyahkah. Its so cute and soft. It really meant alot to me that she would do that for me. We were by the kitchen and she was like, aww, look at those braclets. They were 2 blue ones and one had big beads with lil pink beads in the middle and the other was a bunch of little blue beads. She was like, aww. Those are pretty! I was like aww. I told her. "Let me see you hand" and she put it up and was like huh, and I put the braclets on her arm. She deserves anything and everything. That girl is fucking awesome. Me and her have so much in common, the paris hilton thing, the being way to skinny thing, and all that stuff. I feel really comfortable around her. Its been a really cool past couple of weeks. I know that I have gotten really sad about things but I did actually have people to talk to and they helped me. Now Im all really happy again. Its really great. i could stick to the same group of friends my whole life. Like I Said...
DAMN, YOU KIDS ARE LIKE DRUGS!
<3 IM SO HAPPY FOR SHAWNA AND BOSWELL <3
Aw, Im so incredibly happy for the two bute ass lil love birds. Today, Shawna and Boswell are now officially going out! <3 Man, Im so happy for them, its unbelieveable. Shawna and Boswell have this beautiful unconditional love and it makes me really happy that they were together. Im just so happy. Im sorry, Ive been telling them it all night, but I cant help it. It was just one of those things that were meant to be. Its like a miracle. They were standing in the kitchen and were gazing into eachothers eyes and shawna has on her beautiful prom dress which she looked georgous in. They were stareing into eachothers eyes just telling eachother that they loved eachother. It was fucking adorable. Me, John, Harriaon, Brian, and David are all like.."Wow. Thats amazing. and how its unbelieveably great that they found eachother and can Love eachother the way they do. They were all talking about how they are gonna get married one day and that Harrison could be Boswells best man, and Shawna said I could be one of the bridesmaids. It was adorable. I can tell they really really Love eachother. I just wanted to say that Im really happy for the two of you. <3
Harrison...
Alrite Kid. You are one of my good friends. I know we have a past, but we just got to let that all go. It was really really fun hanging out with you all weekend. Its been really really fun. I just want to let you know that no matter what I will always be here for you. Ya kno, just like me, Shawna, and Boswell said. There like your new parents. Im gonna help remind you about things and honestly, you need to go to school. Think about the future. Dont think about all those other drugs that you want to do or want to try. I know were still young and want to live while were young. But just please try and think about how it could affect your life in the future. I do love you kid. Just always know that.
Boswell
Boswell, I want you to know that it really ment alot to me when you wre all like, "come here, give me a hug" and then you told me that you really did love me and that I was an awesome ass chick and stuff. I jjust wanted to let you know that that really made my day. I dont know. For some reason I would just never expect that from you. It was really rreally sweet. I think its so much cooler that me and you are friends . I feel like I can tell you anything, and when you talked to me online that one day and talked to me and told me your feelings, that meant so much because I can tell me and you are better off good friends and that me and you bonded and stuff. It was really really cool. Its sooo awesome that you and Shawna are together now. Im really happy for you guys. I do love you to. Your suxh a sweetheart. If anyone, and I mean anyone trys to break you and Shawna up, then I want you two not to worry about it and come come tell me and talk to me about it and I'll take care of it. (Just the Truth and Honesty)<3
There are two great songs I just cant get enough of....
The Postal Service...
The District Sleeps Alone Tonight...
smeared black ink:
your palms are sweaty and I'm barely listening
to last demands..
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath
wear my badge:
a vinyl sticker with big block letters adhered to my chest
tells your new friends: I am a visitor here...I am not permanent
and the only thing keeping me dry is
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key
explaining that I'm just visiting
and I am finally seeing
why I was the one worth leaving
why i was the one worth leaving
d.c. sleeps alone tonight
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key
explaining that I'm just visiting
and I am finally seeing
why I was the one worth leaving
why i was the one worth leaving
the district sleeps alone tonight
after the bars turn out their lights
and send the autos swerving
into the loneliest evening
and I am finally seeing
why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
The Postal Service...
Such Great Heights...
I, I'm thinking it's a sign
that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images
and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate
that God himself did make
us into corresponding shapes
like puzzle pieces from the clay
And true, it may seem like a stretch
but its thoughts like this that catch
my troubled head when you're away
when I am missing you to death
when you're out there on the road
for several weeks of shows
and when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you
they will see us waving from such great heights,
"come down now", they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away,
"come down now", but we'll stay...
I tried my best to leave
this all on your machine
but the persistent beat it sounded thin
upon listening
and that frankly will not fly
you will hear the shrillest highs
and lowest lows with the windows down
when this is guiding you home
they will see us waving from such great
heights,
"come down now", they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now", but we'll stay...
John
I cant even begin to explain how much I love you. John, you are such a great guy. Me and you have so much in common. I remember when I first met you. Ive spent so many days of my life with you. You are one of my Bestes Friends I have ever had. I remember when you started picking up only Heather to hang out, and it just made me really super sad and all because I always thought of you, Spencer, and Marshall as my boys. I mean, I remember when you guys used to tell me I was like one of the guys and we all went to Magnolia to Their moms house and wresteled and I can be myself around you and all them. I just want to let you know I do love you. We were there for eachother on many many occasions. I mean, I was even there when you lost your virginity. I was rite next to you all the way. I was really rite next to you too, on the same bed as a matter of fact. If you remember it was those crazy Christmas Break Days. I miss the good Ol Days, before all the Drugs and shit, but seriously, It was one of the best Christmas Breaks ever. I just wanted to let you know that I know me and you are gonna be good friends for a long time. I love you! BFFE!
Shawna
Shawna, You are Great. Nothing can really explain you more. You are fucking fantastic. You are a really great girl, and Boswell is lucky to have you. You guys are lucky to have eachother. You both are really great. Man, I can relate to you so much. Me and you are both really skinny and both actually tryed to get fatter. o_0 hah. Most girls are all always like. "Im TOO Fat!" and me and Shawna are like. "Im TOO Skinny!" Its really cool, we Both love Paris Hilton and all that shit. Its really really fucking awesome. I can relate to you in so many ways. Its weird how my worst enemy can become one of my good friends. I can tell that me and you are on the way to being The Bestes Of Friends. Im so happy you IM'd me that day and started bitching. Without it, me and you never would have talked about things and became friends. Like they say...
"Everything Happens For A Reason..."
David
Its Really Really sad to hear that you are going to be moving to Florida as soon as you get out of High School. All I can say is, "at least its for a good reason" I think its really really cool that you have your life planned out and are going to College. Most people dont do things like that. Im really really gonna miss you so much. You are such a great guy. I had to much fun on Saturday morning. Me, You and Harrison all hung around the house, cuddled and talked. Joked and Laughed. It was so much fun. We stayed in bed untill 5:30! It was really fun. Im really gonna miss it alot. I know that its gonna be hard for you to move away from your friends too. Just know that we are planning on a road trip to come and see you. It will be really cool to actually do that. Because for you man, I would.
Brian
You are one of the most generous people I have ever met. I know everyone is all mad and confused about the whole, "you and Heather" thing. I just wanted to say taht it was really nice of you to spend all your money on us just to get us all together and be happy. You are a really nice guy.
Kenna
You Darlin, are such a sweetheart. Like I said. I have never really had any real friends that are girls before, untill you, Shawna, and Jessica came along. You girls mean alot to me. Kenna, If you are ever having any "Guy Problems" with Kyle or with any future boyfriends then tell me. I will kick that Guys ass or Give them a simple "talking to". Kenna, you are georgous. You are a beautiful beautiful person. I Love Ya Girly. And Oh Yeah... Only Holly, Kenna, and Shawna know how you steal balloons like a pro. Seriously, we've had some great times. We have really had some really great times, fo real. Mexican Mondays are the Best! We have to hang out agian on the next one! <3 Luv Ya Girly! <3
Jessica
You are really really fun to hang out with. It was really really fun going to see Total Chaos. Your reminding me of the Good Ol Days when I was all into Punk Music. Your bringing back the past and bringing it into the future. Its been really fun hanging out. Me and My bestfriend would say the same thing! <3 haha. Thats one crazy bitch! :) hah. And it probably would be alot funner if I could remember more parts of the night. Thats why Bars are bad. They erase some of the reasons that could have been great. But I cant remember them since I took those bitches. Seriously, Bars are not a drug I would ever recomend. Its been so much fun jess. I really wanted to go to the show on Friday night, I really did. But I just only slept for 20 Mins the day before and didnt have enough time to get ready and just wasnt feeling up to it. But Next show you want to go to. If your gonna be alone, I most definately would join you. You are really fun to hang around. Your a really cool chick.
<3 Thanx Guys For Always Being There! <3
Much Love For That! <3 I Really Love You Guys!!! <3
All Of You Guys Have Special Features That Make You, You. Its really great. Everyone Has Their Own Personality And Everything. I Love You Guys!
Ok. First Of All...
I FUCKIN LOVE SHAWNA, KENNA, JESSICA, HARRISON, BOSWELL, DAVID, JOHN AND EVERYONE WHO IS HERE FOR ME! <3 It really means alot to me. Its really great that you guys are always here for me. <3 THANX GUYS. I LOVE YOU GUYS! <3
So Heres How It Goes...
Well, I can honestly say my life is going great! Im really really happy. Tonite Ive bonded with everyone. Im really really glad to be alive. I can honestly say that I have been the luckiest girl in the world to have all these people as friends. Shit dude. I got a great gift tonite from SunShine Shawna. She gave me this cute lil belly shirt, its from Buyahkah. Its so cute and soft. It really meant alot to me that she would do that for me. We were by the kitchen and she was like, aww, look at those braclets. They were 2 blue ones and one had big beads with lil pink beads in the middle and the other was a bunch of little blue beads. She was like, aww. Those are pretty! I was like aww. I told her. "Let me see you hand" and she put it up and was like huh, and I put the braclets on her arm. She deserves anything and everything. That girl is fucking awesome. Me and her have so much in common, the paris hilton thing, the being way to skinny thing, and all that stuff. I feel really comfortable around her. Its been a really cool past couple of weeks. I know that I have gotten really sad about things but I did actually have people to talk to and they helped me. Now Im all really happy again. Its really great. i could stick to the same group of friends my whole life. Like I Said...
DAMN, YOU KIDS ARE LIKE DRUGS!
<3 IM SO HAPPY FOR SHAWNA AND BOSWELL <3
Aw, Im so incredibly happy for the two bute ass lil love birds. Today, Shawna and Boswell are now officially going out! <3 Man, Im so happy for them, its unbelieveable. Shawna and Boswell have this beautiful unconditional love and it makes me really happy that they were together. Im just so happy. Im sorry, Ive been telling them it all night, but I cant help it. It was just one of those things that were meant to be. Its like a miracle. They were standing in the kitchen and were gazing into eachothers eyes and shawna has on her beautiful prom dress which she looked georgous in. They were stareing into eachothers eyes just telling eachother that they loved eachother. It was fucking adorable. Me, John, Harriaon, Brian, and David are all like.."Wow. Thats amazing. and how its unbelieveably great that they found eachother and can Love eachother the way they do. They were all talking about how they are gonna get married one day and that Harrison could be Boswells best man, and Shawna said I could be one of the bridesmaids. It was adorable. I can tell they really really Love eachother. I just wanted to say that Im really happy for the two of you. <3
Harrison...
Alrite Kid. You are one of my good friends. I know we have a past, but we just got to let that all go. It was really really fun hanging out with you all weekend. Its been really really fun. I just want to let you know that no matter what I will always be here for you. Ya kno, just like me, Shawna, and Boswell said. There like your new parents. Im gonna help remind you about things and honestly, you need to go to school. Think about the future. Dont think about all those other drugs that you want to do or want to try. I know were still young and want to live while were young. But just please try and think about how it could affect your life in the future. I do love you kid. Just always know that.
Boswell
Boswell, I want you to know that it really ment alot to me when you wre all like, "come here, give me a hug" and then you told me that you really did love me and that I was an awesome ass chick and stuff. I jjust wanted to let you know that that really made my day. I dont know. For some reason I would just never expect that from you. It was really rreally sweet. I think its so much cooler that me and you are friends . I feel like I can tell you anything, and when you talked to me online that one day and talked to me and told me your feelings, that meant so much because I can tell me and you are better off good friends and that me and you bonded and stuff. It was really really cool. Its sooo awesome that you and Shawna are together now. Im really happy for you guys. I do love you to. Your suxh a sweetheart. If anyone, and I mean anyone trys to break you and Shawna up, then I want you two not to worry about it and come come tell me and talk to me about it and I'll take care of it. (Just the Truth and Honesty)<3
There are two great songs I just cant get enough of....
The Postal Service...
The District Sleeps Alone Tonight...
smeared black ink:
your palms are sweaty and I'm barely listening
to last demands..
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath
wear my badge:
a vinyl sticker with big block letters adhered to my chest
tells your new friends: I am a visitor here...I am not permanent
and the only thing keeping me dry is
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key
explaining that I'm just visiting
and I am finally seeing
why I was the one worth leaving
why i was the one worth leaving
d.c. sleeps alone tonight
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key
explaining that I'm just visiting
and I am finally seeing
why I was the one worth leaving
why i was the one worth leaving
the district sleeps alone tonight
after the bars turn out their lights
and send the autos swerving
into the loneliest evening
and I am finally seeing
why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
The Postal Service...
Such Great Heights...
I, I'm thinking it's a sign
that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images
and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate
that God himself did make
us into corresponding shapes
like puzzle pieces from the clay
And true, it may seem like a stretch
but its thoughts like this that catch
my troubled head when you're away
when I am missing you to death
when you're out there on the road
for several weeks of shows
and when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you
they will see us waving from such great heights,
"come down now", they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away,
"come down now", but we'll stay...
I tried my best to leave
this all on your machine
but the persistent beat it sounded thin
upon listening
and that frankly will not fly
you will hear the shrillest highs
and lowest lows with the windows down
when this is guiding you home
they will see us waving from such great
heights,
"come down now", they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now", but we'll stay...
John
I cant even begin to explain how much I love you. John, you are such a great guy. Me and you have so much in common. I remember when I first met you. Ive spent so many days of my life with you. You are one of my Bestes Friends I have ever had. I remember when you started picking up only Heather to hang out, and it just made me really super sad and all because I always thought of you, Spencer, and Marshall as my boys. I mean, I remember when you guys used to tell me I was like one of the guys and we all went to Magnolia to Their moms house and wresteled and I can be myself around you and all them. I just want to let you know I do love you. We were there for eachother on many many occasions. I mean, I was even there when you lost your virginity. I was rite next to you all the way. I was really rite next to you too, on the same bed as a matter of fact. If you remember it was those crazy Christmas Break Days. I miss the good Ol Days, before all the Drugs and shit, but seriously, It was one of the best Christmas Breaks ever. I just wanted to let you know that I know me and you are gonna be good friends for a long time. I love you! BFFE!
Shawna
Shawna, You are Great. Nothing can really explain you more. You are fucking fantastic. You are a really great girl, and Boswell is lucky to have you. You guys are lucky to have eachother. You both are really great. Man, I can relate to you so much. Me and you are both really skinny and both actually tryed to get fatter. o_0 hah. Most girls are all always like. "Im TOO Fat!" and me and Shawna are like. "Im TOO Skinny!" Its really cool, we Both love Paris Hilton and all that shit. Its really really fucking awesome. I can relate to you in so many ways. Its weird how my worst enemy can become one of my good friends. I can tell that me and you are on the way to being The Bestes Of Friends. Im so happy you IM'd me that day and started bitching. Without it, me and you never would have talked about things and became friends. Like they say...
"Everything Happens For A Reason..."
David
Its Really Really sad to hear that you are going to be moving to Florida as soon as you get out of High School. All I can say is, "at least its for a good reason" I think its really really cool that you have your life planned out and are going to College. Most people dont do things like that. Im really really gonna miss you so much. You are such a great guy. I had to much fun on Saturday morning. Me, You and Harrison all hung around the house, cuddled and talked. Joked and Laughed. It was so much fun. We stayed in bed untill 5:30! It was really fun. Im really gonna miss it alot. I know that its gonna be hard for you to move away from your friends too. Just know that we are planning on a road trip to come and see you. It will be really cool to actually do that. Because for you man, I would.
Brian
You are one of the most generous people I have ever met. I know everyone is all mad and confused about the whole, "you and Heather" thing. I just wanted to say taht it was really nice of you to spend all your money on us just to get us all together and be happy. You are a really nice guy.
Kenna
You Darlin, are such a sweetheart. Like I said. I have never really had any real friends that are girls before, untill you, Shawna, and Jessica came along. You girls mean alot to me. Kenna, If you are ever having any "Guy Problems" with Kyle or with any future boyfriends then tell me. I will kick that Guys ass or Give them a simple "talking to". Kenna, you are georgous. You are a beautiful beautiful person. I Love Ya Girly. And Oh Yeah... Only Holly, Kenna, and Shawna know how you steal balloons like a pro. Seriously, we've had some great times. We have really had some really great times, fo real. Mexican Mondays are the Best! We have to hang out agian on the next one! <3 Luv Ya Girly! <3
Jessica
You are really really fun to hang out with. It was really really fun going to see Total Chaos. Your reminding me of the Good Ol Days when I was all into Punk Music. Your bringing back the past and bringing it into the future. Its been really fun hanging out. Me and My bestfriend would say the same thing! <3 haha. Thats one crazy bitch! :) hah. And it probably would be alot funner if I could remember more parts of the night. Thats why Bars are bad. They erase some of the reasons that could have been great. But I cant remember them since I took those bitches. Seriously, Bars are not a drug I would ever recomend. Its been so much fun jess. I really wanted to go to the show on Friday night, I really did. But I just only slept for 20 Mins the day before and didnt have enough time to get ready and just wasnt feeling up to it. But Next show you want to go to. If your gonna be alone, I most definately would join you. You are really fun to hang around. Your a really cool chick.
<3 Thanx Guys For Always Being There! <3
Much Love For That! <3 I Really Love You Guys!!! <3
All Of You Guys Have Special Features That Make You, You. Its really great. Everyone Has Their Own Personality And Everything. I Love You Guys!