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Just had a thought..
when all the family is down for me parents anniversary party.
maybe my dadcu [welsh for grandad] might actually take a pic of me intentionally for once.
..or it might just be of the favourates.
oh the joys of being one of the shunned ones.
ahhh well, my selfesteem will take a battering, but who cares, there'll be a bar, i can just get wasted with jam.
Ahhhh well, at least me great uncle is looking forward to meeting me on saturday...or so im told.
i'll be the first great niece of his he's met, suppose thats something.
and no im not joking bout being shunned, last time me grandma n dadcu came to visit
i was in bed coz i was bare ill, was bout 3months into the 8months of puking.
and me mum said, just go wake her up, she'll be happy to see you, but they didnt, they didnt even leave me anything, i saw them as they were leaving, and even then they didnt seem pleased to see me at all, and the time before that they were twats to me, and the time before that id discovered my tonsil was swollen and that i had tonsillitis and my grandma made me feel worse.
At least my grandad tends to be pleased whenever i see him, more so recently because he's dying, almost cried when he said he thought he wasnt gonna get a chance to see him before he went...he also told me to beat the system and to keep happy...he's still alive...but its just a matter of weeks to be honest, hopefully soon, thats not me being a horrible person, i just want him to go with dignity, i mean he's already managed that so far, i mean dying of old age, how many people get to do that nowadays? hopeing he goes in his sleep, peacefully like.
when all the family is down for me parents anniversary party.
maybe my dadcu [welsh for grandad] might actually take a pic of me intentionally for once.
..or it might just be of the favourates.
oh the joys of being one of the shunned ones.
ahhh well, my selfesteem will take a battering, but who cares, there'll be a bar, i can just get wasted with jam.
Ahhhh well, at least me great uncle is looking forward to meeting me on saturday...or so im told.
i'll be the first great niece of his he's met, suppose thats something.
and no im not joking bout being shunned, last time me grandma n dadcu came to visit
i was in bed coz i was bare ill, was bout 3months into the 8months of puking.
and me mum said, just go wake her up, she'll be happy to see you, but they didnt, they didnt even leave me anything, i saw them as they were leaving, and even then they didnt seem pleased to see me at all, and the time before that they were twats to me, and the time before that id discovered my tonsil was swollen and that i had tonsillitis and my grandma made me feel worse.
At least my grandad tends to be pleased whenever i see him, more so recently because he's dying, almost cried when he said he thought he wasnt gonna get a chance to see him before he went...he also told me to beat the system and to keep happy...he's still alive...but its just a matter of weeks to be honest, hopefully soon, thats not me being a horrible person, i just want him to go with dignity, i mean he's already managed that so far, i mean dying of old age, how many people get to do that nowadays? hopeing he goes in his sleep, peacefully like.