Dec 19, 2003 23:52
My heart always hurts. And it sucks I just hate being alone. Then that got me thinking did i ever really like drew or did i just want a boyfriend because i wanted someone to cuddle with at night (needless to say that didnt work out) And then i was thinking did i ever really like any of them? And I've come to the conclusion no i didnt like any of them in a sexual kinda way i just wanted someone to be around and to care about me. To bad that never worked out. Oh well I guess I'm gonna be alone for a longggggggggg time. I should prolly just get over it.
Today I was suposed to be the luckest girl in the world and I was suposed to hang out with Jeff McMullen... Possibly the hottest guy in the WORLD! But my parents were gay and went back on what they told me and so i didnt get to have a car. If you dont know Lyles in the shop. But I did talk to him. I'm not sure for how long cause he was with 2 other guys and the phone was getting passed around and they were all drunk/drinking and I couldnt keep any of them straight. OH well at least I got to talk to the hottest guy in the world. Were suposed to hang out on Tuesday but due to the fact he prolly wont remember in the morning we wont. Oh well. Hes my agent mulder ;)