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ok so, things have been going good...we talked everything out we're moving on in our life...i have learned to deal with the mistakes he has made and we have been doing really fucking good...thank god because i really dont want to spend my life with anyone else...im not ready to move on...i never want to be with anyone else...i believe we can work through all of this...he cried alot i cried alot...he made a promise to never do any of this again he says i deserve alot better and i agree, i dont deserve to be lied to and i certainly dont deserve what he had done...but i accepted the fact that it happened and it will hopefully never happen again, hopefully he means it all this time and i will believe him...until i am proven otherwise...it sucks what happened but i want my marriage to work...and i want my daughter to have the family she deserves, and i am happy with chris i never stopped being happy with him...i just believe we need better communication, i thought we had great communication but that just goes to show how wrong i was...i wont give samantha the satisfaction of leaving chris, she will not win...she is the reason all his other relationships didnt work...but u know what...she isnt gonna be this time...we will pull through all of this and im not letting her win! fuck her...im so glad i have this journal...she stated to have had a 3sum with chris on feb 26th and she was sooo wrong, because we were at the dr's that day and we were together allllllll day after that...so she can fuck herself along with her friend jenna, it just goes to show that 2 hoes are one in the same. they dont fucking care about the bad names they are only giving themselves by admitting they are and will be sluts, they just want to make other people look bad well it all blew up in both of their faces, they are both trifling deceiving WHORES! And not to mention a horrible mother...well i just wanted to update and let everyone know that i have moved on...i havent held on to the horrible past i picked everything up and brought it into the future with me...i have to be positive for the little girl i am about to bring into this world and i have to be a great mom...and i will be a great mom...and everyone WILL eat their words i promise! by the way, i went to the dr's yesterday, she is fully dropped, and i should be expecting her anytime now...we're ready! but i feel like she will be late, everyone thinks ill have her within the next 3 weeks, i cant fucking wait!!!!!!!! ok thats it...ttyl