Feeling Good
I'm really messed up as a person. There are things that I can only do and feelings I can only express when I'm out of my mind, either through a form of insanity or the intake of excessive amounts of mind altering substances.
There are a good few of you that a truely love. If you back me into a corner, I will admit this to you. But I have a real problem truely expressing how much I care about you. If it was that I just felt awkward about talking about my feelings, I would be able to get over it. There is a huge amount of things I've been able to do in my life by just diving in head first. But it feels as if there is nothing there sometimes, even though I know I really care about you people and I really do hate myself for not being able to get over this bullshit and just feel the way I should about you.
Although I'd love to write out an entry for each and every one of you, I can't repeat the feelings I have for all of you and I just hope I'll be able to keep in contact with you so you'll each know how I feel about you. This message does apply to a few people who can't actually see this and also to a few people who can see this and won't believe that it's anything to with them.
To make things clear, if you are a mutual friend of mine on this quaint little website, this message most likely applies to you.
Tom, Kyli, Corrine, Lewis, Kate, Loo & Dan. That should make things even clearer. There are most definately more people who aren't on LJ, but Tom stands out the most in this group, so he is named. Everyone named here has had an profoundly positive influence on my life even if you can't think of why.
There are a good few of you that a truely love. If you back me into a corner, I will admit this to you. But I have a real problem truely expressing how much I care about you. If it was that I just felt awkward about talking about my feelings, I would be able to get over it. There is a huge amount of things I've been able to do in my life by just diving in head first. But it feels as if there is nothing there sometimes, even though I know I really care about you people and I really do hate myself for not being able to get over this bullshit and just feel the way I should about you.
Although I'd love to write out an entry for each and every one of you, I can't repeat the feelings I have for all of you and I just hope I'll be able to keep in contact with you so you'll each know how I feel about you. This message does apply to a few people who can't actually see this and also to a few people who can see this and won't believe that it's anything to with them.
To make things clear, if you are a mutual friend of mine on this quaint little website, this message most likely applies to you.
Tom, Kyli, Corrine, Lewis, Kate, Loo & Dan. That should make things even clearer. There are most definately more people who aren't on LJ, but Tom stands out the most in this group, so he is named. Everyone named here has had an profoundly positive influence on my life even if you can't think of why.