your irony speaks many volumes to me
I just realized. Seeing this new 4 member version of Glassjaw makes me sick to my stomach. Perhaps because of time well spent with Todd and secrets like felines escaping from various suitcases and bags. This isn't gonna be good. 19 days til showtime and regardless of how much I miss the way things were, I am committed to having a new relationship with all involved. Things will not be the way they were, that was nearly 10 years ago, things can only be different and so I will attempt to disregard old schemas and start fresh. I will go into the situation with a "what's going on now" attitude rather than a "remember when we..." kinda thing. I just wish new was new and there were less remnants of the past as reminders of remember whens.
I feel like things are better if you don't know. Some things I wish I could just un-know or forget. I have a bad memory but certain things I wont ever forget. I guess pain doesn't go away just because you ignore it but maybe we are able to push things back until we find the right tools or learn the right lesson to cope or deal with things and then, in time, we can bring em back out and put em away, for good.
I feel like things are better if you don't know. Some things I wish I could just un-know or forget. I have a bad memory but certain things I wont ever forget. I guess pain doesn't go away just because you ignore it but maybe we are able to push things back until we find the right tools or learn the right lesson to cope or deal with things and then, in time, we can bring em back out and put em away, for good.