catching up...
Things I meant to say:
The thing about regrets is you can have them and in abundance. There are always words we don't say and words we mean to say. Sometimes they are one and the same. I said plenty of "I forgive you"s and plenty of "I love you"s. Doubtlessly I could have said them more.
What I wish I had said more often was "Stay." Or "I need you." That would have been greatly of more use to me than assigning blame.
Write a letter to yourself as a child:
Daniel -
This letter won't help you much but I want you to know it won't all be so bad. It wasn't all bad. You aren't worthless even though you won't believe me.
Chances are your father hasn't left yet. Love him. It's what you're doing to do and I wouldn't want you not to.
A good deal of time will pass before you begin to learn to forgive yourself and others. Try to remember that the darkness can be as good a place as any to seek solace. You'll learn to be stronger although it will take much more time than you can imagine.
Love will be harder to maintain although it will easily be what you want the most. Seek it and look for it regardless.
The thing about regrets is you can have them and in abundance. There are always words we don't say and words we mean to say. Sometimes they are one and the same. I said plenty of "I forgive you"s and plenty of "I love you"s. Doubtlessly I could have said them more.
What I wish I had said more often was "Stay." Or "I need you." That would have been greatly of more use to me than assigning blame.
Write a letter to yourself as a child:
Daniel -
This letter won't help you much but I want you to know it won't all be so bad. It wasn't all bad. You aren't worthless even though you won't believe me.
Chances are your father hasn't left yet. Love him. It's what you're doing to do and I wouldn't want you not to.
A good deal of time will pass before you begin to learn to forgive yourself and others. Try to remember that the darkness can be as good a place as any to seek solace. You'll learn to be stronger although it will take much more time than you can imagine.
Love will be harder to maintain although it will easily be what you want the most. Seek it and look for it regardless.