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plans!!!!!!!1
i've got them...i've got alot of them?
to many and to few thinking them over...isnt enough anymore...
were just people right?
right...so than i've came up with my own and i like them...getting thier is hard...im doing good on this whole exorcising thing...ima be a sexy bitch haha...well not really
but i know i can be something better than what i am now...and when i get there...how evil and fucked up do i wanna be?
all this rejection is just gonna eventually turn me into a guy that will just use women...i dont want that...why the fuck should i even be like that?
thats what my dad is...thats what fucking jared is/was. those guys are the real peices of shits...
james knows, even if you doubt him me and him were the same even if were opposites but we both know we are. we have the same idea's of what a real friend should be. and set standers a person should have i like how it's set like that. it's even better tho cuz we help eachother out. being around him and his family really shows me what it's like to have a real family rather than the 2 people im living with now. cuz thats what it feels like. i like hanging out with him and his g/f even if i am a 3rd wheel sometimes...not all but some cuz it's a welcoming feeling that they make me feel. he knows that. and our ways are the same so it's good? healty...
anywho my plan...well right now
im doing good on the whole weight lose real good infact.
now thats part of image...i shaved...it's meh...takes getting use to but it's whatever...
and now my hair...it's cut...normalized for the "man" and his ways...the ways society has placed us to beleive that what normal is?
i mean i like having long hair thats all fucked up.
im a grungy type of guy...i dont take care of myself but im not all fucked up at the same time i dont have acne and im not a whore.
simply put as that. i cuss...i smoke ciggarettes. i can be phisical when i wanna be...im a active person but around people that i wanna be activie around...
one time i was on the fone with kari...i was hyper...she called me weird and hung up...probably cuz your only use to me being sad.
honestly im pretty fucking random it's funny it's FUN try it sometime and dont fake it ha!
anywho so my birthday is comming up in 16 days...i wonder what that will be like...i dont have any plans i wanna hang out with certian people i want some sort of recognition but i doubt i will get any...who knows?
last years was pretty kewl i liked it...even tho it wasnt anything special it was special to me cuz i've never had one like that...all of mine suck...my 17th birthday i stayed home and watched my brother smoke pot the whole nite only for him to get mad at me for not having my liecense to go out and buy him food...i think i got a gatorade for that birthday...sad but true...
this year im gonna ask my mom...more like tell her to make up for the past shitty ass GIFTS...cant even call them gifts...she has gotten me...and tell her to get me a digital SLR camera...there expense...like $700+ but fuck it...i like technology im a nerd.
I LIKE WATCHING MOVIES doesnt matter with who...if your down to at least SIT threw a movie it's good.
jeremy USE to be like that...USE to...but other people arnt this gurl on myspace who im friends with had a horror movie watching marathon i was jealous...really jealous...i wanna do shit like that! it's fun...i dunno why people get weired out...mainly the opposite sex when i wanna hang out with them. it's....NICE to be around the opposite sex cuz there just different i mean. I HAVE ALOT OF GUY FRIENDS...im over it...i wanna hang out with gurls cuz they do kewl shit and have different ways? i guess you can say...
there is this photogapher on deviant art...i like how he takes his pictures...he gets a model..makes them look pretty or do what ever takes there pics...i wanna do shit like that...i wanna make weird ass short films...i just need the people? well the people can be easy but someone who is willing to be commited at least...and actually get into with me.
well right now...im looking for a job and hopefully soon really soon i will be a valet driver for this casino. ya that would be really nice actually...tips, minimum tips is 60 a day cash...maximum my friend has gotten one nice was 300$ thats nice really nice. i hate money but i need it. there is way to much i wanna get and use...i like doing shit like that.
james wants to goto hair skewl cuz he's good with it. me and him are ARTISTIC. we have been we just have different types of creativity mine...i can think it up. seeing in my mind is harder for me tho. say like...fashion...im better at fashion than him.
but he is better at stlying than me. teh end.
but makeup is fun haha. face painting is fun i like it.
we have alot of white face paint left over from that 80's party...who wants to be a mime? I DO!!!
i think i will...i just need a better aperiance. thats all...
so my hair...we thinned it...cut it...and sorta layerd it?
it's different than we straightend it...
i wanna buy a straightning iron...
im different...
barking spiders are not my cup of tea.
<3
nigger
i've got them...i've got alot of them?
to many and to few thinking them over...isnt enough anymore...
were just people right?
right...so than i've came up with my own and i like them...getting thier is hard...im doing good on this whole exorcising thing...ima be a sexy bitch haha...well not really
but i know i can be something better than what i am now...and when i get there...how evil and fucked up do i wanna be?
all this rejection is just gonna eventually turn me into a guy that will just use women...i dont want that...why the fuck should i even be like that?
thats what my dad is...thats what fucking jared is/was. those guys are the real peices of shits...
james knows, even if you doubt him me and him were the same even if were opposites but we both know we are. we have the same idea's of what a real friend should be. and set standers a person should have i like how it's set like that. it's even better tho cuz we help eachother out. being around him and his family really shows me what it's like to have a real family rather than the 2 people im living with now. cuz thats what it feels like. i like hanging out with him and his g/f even if i am a 3rd wheel sometimes...not all but some cuz it's a welcoming feeling that they make me feel. he knows that. and our ways are the same so it's good? healty...
anywho my plan...well right now
im doing good on the whole weight lose real good infact.
now thats part of image...i shaved...it's meh...takes getting use to but it's whatever...
and now my hair...it's cut...normalized for the "man" and his ways...the ways society has placed us to beleive that what normal is?
i mean i like having long hair thats all fucked up.
im a grungy type of guy...i dont take care of myself but im not all fucked up at the same time i dont have acne and im not a whore.
simply put as that. i cuss...i smoke ciggarettes. i can be phisical when i wanna be...im a active person but around people that i wanna be activie around...
one time i was on the fone with kari...i was hyper...she called me weird and hung up...probably cuz your only use to me being sad.
honestly im pretty fucking random it's funny it's FUN try it sometime and dont fake it ha!
anywho so my birthday is comming up in 16 days...i wonder what that will be like...i dont have any plans i wanna hang out with certian people i want some sort of recognition but i doubt i will get any...who knows?
last years was pretty kewl i liked it...even tho it wasnt anything special it was special to me cuz i've never had one like that...all of mine suck...my 17th birthday i stayed home and watched my brother smoke pot the whole nite only for him to get mad at me for not having my liecense to go out and buy him food...i think i got a gatorade for that birthday...sad but true...
this year im gonna ask my mom...more like tell her to make up for the past shitty ass GIFTS...cant even call them gifts...she has gotten me...and tell her to get me a digital SLR camera...there expense...like $700+ but fuck it...i like technology im a nerd.
I LIKE WATCHING MOVIES doesnt matter with who...if your down to at least SIT threw a movie it's good.
jeremy USE to be like that...USE to...but other people arnt this gurl on myspace who im friends with had a horror movie watching marathon i was jealous...really jealous...i wanna do shit like that! it's fun...i dunno why people get weired out...mainly the opposite sex when i wanna hang out with them. it's....NICE to be around the opposite sex cuz there just different i mean. I HAVE ALOT OF GUY FRIENDS...im over it...i wanna hang out with gurls cuz they do kewl shit and have different ways? i guess you can say...
there is this photogapher on deviant art...i like how he takes his pictures...he gets a model..makes them look pretty or do what ever takes there pics...i wanna do shit like that...i wanna make weird ass short films...i just need the people? well the people can be easy but someone who is willing to be commited at least...and actually get into with me.
well right now...im looking for a job and hopefully soon really soon i will be a valet driver for this casino. ya that would be really nice actually...tips, minimum tips is 60 a day cash...maximum my friend has gotten one nice was 300$ thats nice really nice. i hate money but i need it. there is way to much i wanna get and use...i like doing shit like that.
james wants to goto hair skewl cuz he's good with it. me and him are ARTISTIC. we have been we just have different types of creativity mine...i can think it up. seeing in my mind is harder for me tho. say like...fashion...im better at fashion than him.
but he is better at stlying than me. teh end.
but makeup is fun haha. face painting is fun i like it.
we have alot of white face paint left over from that 80's party...who wants to be a mime? I DO!!!
i think i will...i just need a better aperiance. thats all...
so my hair...we thinned it...cut it...and sorta layerd it?
it's different than we straightend it...
i wanna buy a straightning iron...
im different...
barking spiders are not my cup of tea.
<3
nigger