with days like these
i wish i could just quit life
i feel so discouraged
about everything
work
family
friends
boys
nothing seems to work for me
i don't get it.
yesterday i had the most amazing day possible
i made 2 sales out of the 2 appointments i made
my family was being really nice & supportive
my friends were acting like they were actually my friends, which hasn't happened in a long time
& the cutest boy in the world told me he wanted to date me
today.
it's only 930
& it's already the crappiest day ever.
someone decided that they want a return on the sale i made yesterday... how's that gonna sound to my boss?
my family is too busy to even do the appointments they said they would. we have the filipino store, & i guess they have a bunch of orders to do... but honestly. is it really that hard to sit on your ass & watch me do my presentation for half an hour?
my friends are more interested that i got them recommended for the job that i have, that they basically don't want me to demo their parents anymore because they think they'll get the job, & they want to do it. which makes no sense to me because we'll both get paid & we'll both get to demo their parents, & i put in the good word for them about the job, which i apparently shouldn't have done because sometimes being what you think is thoughtful & caring kicks you right back in the fucking ass.
& the cutest boy in the world last night was texting me. & asking me if i got home okay, & how my day went, & he asked if he could call me when he got home from seattle. & then a little bit later. he texted me. & asked me if i'd be pissed off if he slept with someone else.
how how how.
apparently i'm void of all feeling.
so please.
please
please
please
hurt me.
i feel so discouraged
about everything
work
family
friends
boys
nothing seems to work for me
i don't get it.
yesterday i had the most amazing day possible
i made 2 sales out of the 2 appointments i made
my family was being really nice & supportive
my friends were acting like they were actually my friends, which hasn't happened in a long time
& the cutest boy in the world told me he wanted to date me
today.
it's only 930
& it's already the crappiest day ever.
someone decided that they want a return on the sale i made yesterday... how's that gonna sound to my boss?
my family is too busy to even do the appointments they said they would. we have the filipino store, & i guess they have a bunch of orders to do... but honestly. is it really that hard to sit on your ass & watch me do my presentation for half an hour?
my friends are more interested that i got them recommended for the job that i have, that they basically don't want me to demo their parents anymore because they think they'll get the job, & they want to do it. which makes no sense to me because we'll both get paid & we'll both get to demo their parents, & i put in the good word for them about the job, which i apparently shouldn't have done because sometimes being what you think is thoughtful & caring kicks you right back in the fucking ass.
& the cutest boy in the world last night was texting me. & asking me if i got home okay, & how my day went, & he asked if he could call me when he got home from seattle. & then a little bit later. he texted me. & asked me if i'd be pissed off if he slept with someone else.
how how how.
apparently i'm void of all feeling.
so please.
please
please
please
hurt me.