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nothin much has been happening lately, ever since the homecoming game when i talked with jon about how much my grade sucks i.e. cliques, concieted people, jackass guys, me not getting the jackass guys haha, no one being able to just chill.... ive been really sad... maybe its just some weird mood swing, i dunno cause im always happy, or atleast ruling out anything bad and just keep going.... im tired of always trying, im tired of being the person who always makes the move, wether its a guy or girl. its always me making the extra effort to talk to somone, or flirt. like no one likes me, its only me who likes everyone else. i dont know what to do but to not try anymore, but then all i can do is think about it and i get in even a worse mood. im tired of this.... and like hope i think i just need some loving from a penis. hah not happening anytime soon....