what goes up must come down....
my life was finally on the right track. i love my job, i love my apartment, i love my roommates and i finally got an effin car. in one stupid mistake my whole world was thrown into upheaval. 3 letters....d..w..i.
i know its not the end of the world. i didnt die, no one else died, i dont have some incurable disease, and i have all of my limbs, but SERIOUSLY...of all people...this happened to me? are you fucking kidding me? in the past month and a half ive done 2 things. work 50 hour work weeks and come home and go to bed and the one time i decide to go out to meet up with friends not turning on my headlights ended up being the worst thing ive ever done.
so now i have a lawyer, soon i will have court dates and no license, and i have to go to counseling and AA meetings to basically prove im a good person because this cancels out everything positive about me apparently.
things have been pretty mixed for me right now. people are disappointed but proud that im handling this the adult way. i feel calm yet anxious. i am upset but okay. this whole situation is one giant contradiction right now.
if not for work....i dont know what id do. its the only healthy distraction i have right now.
i honestly did not see this one coming. sigh.
i know its not the end of the world. i didnt die, no one else died, i dont have some incurable disease, and i have all of my limbs, but SERIOUSLY...of all people...this happened to me? are you fucking kidding me? in the past month and a half ive done 2 things. work 50 hour work weeks and come home and go to bed and the one time i decide to go out to meet up with friends not turning on my headlights ended up being the worst thing ive ever done.
so now i have a lawyer, soon i will have court dates and no license, and i have to go to counseling and AA meetings to basically prove im a good person because this cancels out everything positive about me apparently.
things have been pretty mixed for me right now. people are disappointed but proud that im handling this the adult way. i feel calm yet anxious. i am upset but okay. this whole situation is one giant contradiction right now.
if not for work....i dont know what id do. its the only healthy distraction i have right now.
i honestly did not see this one coming. sigh.