people are people and sometimes it doesnt work out
ugggghhhhh why cant i stop?!?!?! i couldnt let go of rene but then i finally did when i met scotty and now i cant let go of him. obviously the problem here is me. i think maybe i just dont like giving up on relationships that dont feel done. when i finally realized i didnt have the same feelings for rene and there was nothing more i could do it was easy for me to move on as opposed to the earlier years when we kept breaking up for dumb shit (and sometimes not so dumb shit) without working through the problems. that same situation may be occurring. things were so good and in a flash it was gone. it doesnt feel right. i told him i feel like we never gave us a fair chance since it was always something and as opposed to work through the issues we just put them aside until they blew up. i know i need to just stop and move on and blahblahblah and i AM trying, but in situations like this logic is usually thrown out the window.
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