updates can eat me
so i suppose i should give a REAL entry. i used to write in my LJ all the time. what happened? oh yeah. anyway, things are OK i guess. my apartment is great. im way happier there than at the last place. i dont ever want to leave home because its so nice. seven is happier too i think. shes more feisty and she has put on weight. i really think she was just depressed at the other place and thats why she was so skinny. yesterday we were playing chase. it was cute. chris and i havent really seen each other. ive been in a very 'lock myself in my room and rock out alone' kind of mood.
its really freezing in here. the weather isnt as hot as before. yay! you know what that means? summer is coming to an end. i cant wait to bust out the jackets, hoodies, hats, mittens, and scarves. its my favorite.
i talked to cassie a little bit yesterday. baby boy is feeding well finally and hes already spoiled. he doesnt want to sleep in his crib by himself and cassie is such a mom now that she gives in and lets him sleep in the bed with her. hes so cute. i love my niece and my nephew. im an aunt in less than year. being around babies makes me want to have one. not now though. ew. first boyfriend/husband then baby. i have to remember that.
im not sure what is going on in the boy department. so much confusion and nonsensical bullshit. im getting fucking sick of it. i dont know what happened with m. things were so great until after the weekend i went to visit. it all just fell apart. no phone calls, no IMs, no cute comments. now its even worse than before. none of that stuff + extra douchiness. id like to know what the fuck changed. im aware that nothing was going to come out of it, but i would at least like to salvage a friendship and i feel like im being pushed into oblivion. i feel like im trying to be made into a faded memory. why? maybe im just nuts and this is all as a result of me acting like a crazy. maybe i brought it all upon myself. i wish i knew. im not exactly sure why this one bugs me the most. maybe its the quickness of the change. maybe its because i sit here and wonder... what is the point of instant chemistry when you cant do anything about it? ugh. thats a lot of maybes. maybe thats why im slightly sad. there is really no point to maybes, and what ifs anyway. its a lost cause. c'est la vie.
my ear itches. there are way too many concerts coming up, and i am way too poor for like 75% of them. you better believe im going to NFG though. hit the lights+nfg? oh hell yeah.
im looking forward to my vacation in october. i hope you guys (kelly and ashley) are ready!!! you just might want to kill me after awhile, but thats just too bad.
i dont have the attention span for working. i dont have the attention span for much as of late. i just want to sit here and dance in my chair and drum on my desk.
im going to the valley with rene this weekend. friday is my only day to do anything so im thinking 40z and pizza? rene will probably want me to spend the night though since we are probably going to take off saturday morning. grr. i guess i can do that over there. as long as no one bugs me while im doing it. thats one of those things you do with someone ultra bad ass or alone. while i love rene....he has a tendency to be ummmm lame?
i dont know what else i can possibly write about. so i guess ill pretend to work until 4.
its really freezing in here. the weather isnt as hot as before. yay! you know what that means? summer is coming to an end. i cant wait to bust out the jackets, hoodies, hats, mittens, and scarves. its my favorite.
i talked to cassie a little bit yesterday. baby boy is feeding well finally and hes already spoiled. he doesnt want to sleep in his crib by himself and cassie is such a mom now that she gives in and lets him sleep in the bed with her. hes so cute. i love my niece and my nephew. im an aunt in less than year. being around babies makes me want to have one. not now though. ew. first boyfriend/husband then baby. i have to remember that.
im not sure what is going on in the boy department. so much confusion and nonsensical bullshit. im getting fucking sick of it. i dont know what happened with m. things were so great until after the weekend i went to visit. it all just fell apart. no phone calls, no IMs, no cute comments. now its even worse than before. none of that stuff + extra douchiness. id like to know what the fuck changed. im aware that nothing was going to come out of it, but i would at least like to salvage a friendship and i feel like im being pushed into oblivion. i feel like im trying to be made into a faded memory. why? maybe im just nuts and this is all as a result of me acting like a crazy. maybe i brought it all upon myself. i wish i knew. im not exactly sure why this one bugs me the most. maybe its the quickness of the change. maybe its because i sit here and wonder... what is the point of instant chemistry when you cant do anything about it? ugh. thats a lot of maybes. maybe thats why im slightly sad. there is really no point to maybes, and what ifs anyway. its a lost cause. c'est la vie.
my ear itches. there are way too many concerts coming up, and i am way too poor for like 75% of them. you better believe im going to NFG though. hit the lights+nfg? oh hell yeah.
im looking forward to my vacation in october. i hope you guys (kelly and ashley) are ready!!! you just might want to kill me after awhile, but thats just too bad.
i dont have the attention span for working. i dont have the attention span for much as of late. i just want to sit here and dance in my chair and drum on my desk.
im going to the valley with rene this weekend. friday is my only day to do anything so im thinking 40z and pizza? rene will probably want me to spend the night though since we are probably going to take off saturday morning. grr. i guess i can do that over there. as long as no one bugs me while im doing it. thats one of those things you do with someone ultra bad ass or alone. while i love rene....he has a tendency to be ummmm lame?
i dont know what else i can possibly write about. so i guess ill pretend to work until 4.