May God Forsake Me and Heaven Take Me.
Who ever said that love can't hurt should be shot. What they said is BULLSHIT. Have you ever loved someone so much that you wish you could just stop breathing when they leave you for the shortest of time? Wow, I feel like shit right now, I wish I would have danced last night, I wish I could have made Brandon happy. I wish I could... could... Just LIVE. I'm so freaking unflexible, I can't just try something new and don't think about it. Everytime I thought I could maybe try and do a few steps at the dance, I told myself not to and no matter how I was trying I couldn't do it. I couldn't get control over myself, couldn't make a decision and carry it out. I wish... You know what, wishes are a pain in the ass, they can't change a God-damned thing. Just fuck it up even more with all your time and energy wasted on the wishes. I HATE ME. That's all I can say, no other way to put it, I'm just a fucked up.... You know, Now I'm just bitching, Sorry about the ranting. I'll just walk away now.