Nov 05, 2009 10:24
Seriously I wish I could just hide away somewhere for about 3 months. My mind is spinning in circles and Im very frustrated and upset about not being on top of things. I HATE last minute changes to schedules. Not because Im OCD (although Ill admit I am a bit) but because it means I have to find a sitter for my 3 kids, which is sometimes not very easily done. Especially when I want someone who really does watch my kids.. not screw up my computer, let them destroy the house or eat me out of house and home. Ughhh
I really am struggling with a decision to go to St. Louis and see my family. I miss my Dad terribly.. but I do NOT want to stay with my parents. It is just not a good plan at ALL for us. It would be a stressful and aweful visit for sure if we invaded them, plus her coffee is aweful and I cant be havin that! ROFL! (kidding!)
Ive thought about staying with my Sister Susan.. but I do not want to invade her house and stress them out either. I know thats what family is for, but seriously the best choice would be to drive, get a hotel room with 2 large beds and make the best of it all that way. Then we could do what we wish, come and go as we wish and really just veg at the hotel if we absolutely needed to.
The other issue is taking the time off to go. If I do not work I do not get paid.. and my paycheck is very important for us to make our bills in the way that I have things set up. I missed 2 days with the flu last week (or some kind of bug).. so im struggling now with finances already. If I stick MORE of a stress on it Im just not going to be able to make sense of it. PLUS Janet has to schedule the time to be covered for Betty AND Doug would need to be off. Preferably for 3 days, not two. :( If we went over Thanksgiving it would probably be ideal, BUT then Id be behind on so much when we got back. Ughhhh. Doug is off on Thurs, Fri, Sat & Sun that week. We could leave Wed night or extremely early Thurs AM, but my Mom does Thanksgiving "dinner" at noon, so it would need to be WAYYY early if we did Thursday AM. Might be easier to just drive at night. Make a plan to do half and half with Doug and STICK to it, no changing (he always tries to do the whole way alone and it ends up like WWIII by the time we get there!!!)
Ill talk to Doug about it.. and check with my sister about staying with them or what. I dunno.. we may be able to do it. I just want it to be the least amount of stress for everyone for the visit. If I have my own place and bed to go retire to I know it will be much easier for us to rest and get away from the negativity. The Thanksgiving holiday is a ROUGH time to be traveling the roads though... ughhhhhh I just do not know.
OK Im going to get off of here and finish getting ready. Illpick up Lex in a little less than an hour and then we are going to meet Doug for lunch. I miss him and am looking forward to it.
TTFN