i need to get this out, even though they will never know im writing to them.

[i_bite_evrythng]

[if you could take one moment from hating your life
and justifying all your wrong-doings because "your life sucks so whatever, fuck it"
i think you'd see what you really did.
if you knew me, as you once did
and you knew how much i give
and give
and give
and give
you would kill whoever did this to me.
maybe you think you deserve a little bit of happiness
because everything has been so unfair to you.
have you ever thought
that maybe i feel the exact same way?
maybe you just fucked something up
that was the only good thing i had.
after all this time
i finally had something good.
if i did this to you
you would hate me with such a fury
you would drive yourself insane.
and the cruel part is
not only did i do nothing to you to deserve this
but
all i was...
was a friend to you.

and you hate your life]

if i could talk to god at any one point in my life, it would be right now.