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i think if i could, i would take molli and kevin in a car, and drive forever, just listening to my music, and letting the world turn around us. i'm really tired of everything, and i've cried three times today. my self esteem is barely anything to speak of, and i havnt seen my best friend since last week. i really just want to go to the park with my boyfriend and swing. but for some unknown reason, he never called me back, so i didnt come over today. but thats okay, i'm sure he has a good reason. i love rusty black. he saw how sad i was and took me out for ice cream, and then we sat by the river and listened to neutral milk hotel. it made me feel a lot better. i'm really tired of feeling like this. no one has made an effort to talk to me in three days. my sister is being really nice to me today, and i'm glad, because i really needed that today. at first i was pissed off, but then my sister told me something that really hurt my feelings. i mean, i was crying my eyes out. it really really hurt my feelings. i'm just not worth any effort i guess. i bet i'm seen as annoying. i must be. everyone puts their phone on silent when i call. = ).