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friends .. i never thought i see the day when i felt i had no1 in the world but today was the day well its been coming to this for a while now. Many of u kno that me n my mom never reali see eye to eye n my dad don't give a shit bout me but no matter what i always felt i could turn to one of u n find confort.. my eyes are starting to tear now cause i can't believe i am saying this but i have never felt this alone or confused in my life.. so many things have gone wrong n i can't complain to kayce or amy cause thier lives r so much harder then mine .. n i ain't close enough to anyone anymore for them to understand .. i'll start wit my wieght yea i kno its gotton out of control .. if u don't believe me just mention it to my mom she'll let u kno how fat i am but yea none of u can even tell me the truth bout that .. my ball is off n none of u are here to help work on it anymore.. my grades are shit n no1 is here to make me study or help me wit it .. guys hmm guys yea haven't had one in a while none want me n when i find one i want it just seems i can't have them you all just tell me to give it time but i have to face it everyguy i have ever wanted has been in love wit one of my friends go bak to the begining dan n chel .. now casey n jon wow yea it don't piss me off it just makes me cry ... i cry eveynite till i fall asleep n get the little sleep i get just to wake up n go to a skool where no1 knows me n the ones i think are my frieds just seem to forget about me when they are hanging wit their friends .. the last time anyone from there asked me to hang out was wow yea hard to remember cause maybe it didn;t happen .. how can u sit infront of some1 n talk about ur party when u kno u never invited me .. me like the only one in the skool not invited yea thats cute... this english group yea what a joke n it don't have nething to do wit english .. why the fuck can't u people just b honest wit me tell me when i piss u off if u consider me a friend or if i annoy u .. cause u'll never no how much it hurts to kno that your friends mean the world to u and u don't mean shit to them .. if u really wanna kno y i am upset ask and don't ask b/c u read this n kno i am upset ask cause u really care and if u don't go fuck urself and leave me alone cause u can't posibly make me hurt anymore then i already do .. i'd give up everything to see you happy n when ur sick/hurt/upset it kills me inside but i love how u can just ignore me like this .. so if i'm gone 2morrow goodbye to u all and i love u wit all my heart cause if God really loves me he'll take me 2nite in my sleep b4 i hurt nemore