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i am properly stuck in a rut.
marc used that phrase and it rings true with me.
seeing as it's only folk im friends with on here i suppose i can say that i've been diognosed with depression. and though it might seem as a stunt for attention thats not what im doing. just needed to tell yous cos yous may have been creating your own ideas about me. you know that i never go out with yous and mostly stay in. i just dont want yous thinking ive'gone off' yous.
im just going through a terrible mindfuck at the moment. all i do is sleep or go to work.
dont get me wrong its not all lows. i can be very upbeat and happy. but thats all part of the deal really. immense highs and immense lows.
anyways i went to counselling a while back but i stopped going. and then the last month i sort of went downhill. really stopped being myself. on the brink of a dead uncertainty. and tbh the idea of not living anymore. but i went to the docs and thats when she told me. shes not putting me on anti depressants cos im still a teenager and shes forcing me back to counselling. i dont want to be drugged up so im glad about that. but counselling is pish and im not looking forward to that.
so thats whats been going on with me.
one the + side
the shop down the road from me and my own spar have a deal where you get two cadburys yoghurts (buttons. crunchie. flakes) for £1.
marc used that phrase and it rings true with me.
seeing as it's only folk im friends with on here i suppose i can say that i've been diognosed with depression. and though it might seem as a stunt for attention thats not what im doing. just needed to tell yous cos yous may have been creating your own ideas about me. you know that i never go out with yous and mostly stay in. i just dont want yous thinking ive'gone off' yous.
im just going through a terrible mindfuck at the moment. all i do is sleep or go to work.
dont get me wrong its not all lows. i can be very upbeat and happy. but thats all part of the deal really. immense highs and immense lows.
anyways i went to counselling a while back but i stopped going. and then the last month i sort of went downhill. really stopped being myself. on the brink of a dead uncertainty. and tbh the idea of not living anymore. but i went to the docs and thats when she told me. shes not putting me on anti depressants cos im still a teenager and shes forcing me back to counselling. i dont want to be drugged up so im glad about that. but counselling is pish and im not looking forward to that.
so thats whats been going on with me.
one the + side
the shop down the road from me and my own spar have a deal where you get two cadburys yoghurts (buttons. crunchie. flakes) for £1.