Fidgeting
It's taken me a long while to realise that I am a still fidgeter.
As a child, I had long pigtails, and I sucked my braids pretty much constantly while I was at school. I tore tiny bits of paper of every page of every book I read (that wasn't library book) and ate it as I read. I wiggle my toes all the time. I can't see a piece of blu-tak without squidging it. I doodle through phonecalls and meetings. I've never had outward signs of fidgeting, but inwardly, it's constant.
And it really helps me -- when I'm doodling, or eating, or sucking my hair, I can focus on the big thinky stuff.
I realised just today that I don't chew so much gum because I like gum, but because it's a way to give myself physical channel for fidgeting, and flavour stimulus, while I focus on other things. Stuart had noticed how much gum I chew and was a bit concerned. But it's not about the gum. I chew, and then ditch when it's no longer delivering focus (when the monty freshness stops/slows). Chew and ditch.
Maybe I need another pack of blu-tak.
As a child, I had long pigtails, and I sucked my braids pretty much constantly while I was at school. I tore tiny bits of paper of every page of every book I read (that wasn't library book) and ate it as I read. I wiggle my toes all the time. I can't see a piece of blu-tak without squidging it. I doodle through phonecalls and meetings. I've never had outward signs of fidgeting, but inwardly, it's constant.
And it really helps me -- when I'm doodling, or eating, or sucking my hair, I can focus on the big thinky stuff.
I realised just today that I don't chew so much gum because I like gum, but because it's a way to give myself physical channel for fidgeting, and flavour stimulus, while I focus on other things. Stuart had noticed how much gum I chew and was a bit concerned. But it's not about the gum. I chew, and then ditch when it's no longer delivering focus (when the monty freshness stops/slows). Chew and ditch.
Maybe I need another pack of blu-tak.