gah
god, why am i so upset? (i would say depressed, but that sounds so emo and lame) i just need to cry so much, i keep on starting to...and then ill just...stop, and its driving me nuts.
im going to uni on monday and iunno, it cld b that i guess...but i get the impression its more likely to be some subconscious complete mental breakdown of the thought of not having michael around...infact, just writing this has started me off again, only i just CANT fucking cry and get it out of my system.
i mean, hes not oging for another week, and im living at home, so ill still see him in the evenings nxt week, but ill b so tired, and i wont be able to see him for like 5 weeks after thursday...oh god. *is at a loss of what to say*
ive got to go to a party tonight as well, and itll be the last time i see a lot of people for like 3 months, but right now i just want to curl up and cry and eat chocolate and just wallow in self pity etc etc. most of all i want michael though...but im not going to cry infront of him, ive told myself that. besides hes at his dads atm.
whats worse is i cant just sit and stuff, i have to get this fucking project for uni done. theyre such wankers for giving us a summer project. i shouldnt even be sitting here writing.
god. im so fucking fed up with everything, i just want to leave, kidnap michael, and go be a hobo on some desert island somewhere. MEH to life
im going to uni on monday and iunno, it cld b that i guess...but i get the impression its more likely to be some subconscious complete mental breakdown of the thought of not having michael around...infact, just writing this has started me off again, only i just CANT fucking cry and get it out of my system.
i mean, hes not oging for another week, and im living at home, so ill still see him in the evenings nxt week, but ill b so tired, and i wont be able to see him for like 5 weeks after thursday...oh god. *is at a loss of what to say*
ive got to go to a party tonight as well, and itll be the last time i see a lot of people for like 3 months, but right now i just want to curl up and cry and eat chocolate and just wallow in self pity etc etc. most of all i want michael though...but im not going to cry infront of him, ive told myself that. besides hes at his dads atm.
whats worse is i cant just sit and stuff, i have to get this fucking project for uni done. theyre such wankers for giving us a summer project. i shouldnt even be sitting here writing.
god. im so fucking fed up with everything, i just want to leave, kidnap michael, and go be a hobo on some desert island somewhere. MEH to life