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[i_am_zoro]

yesterday i did something stupid
not that it mattered anyways because my parents found me
and they called the cops to make sure i would go anywhere until they got there
which i didn't
my parents don't know anything 
they just think i am crazy
which i am

this is just me giving in
me being weak
its too hard to be strong
its too hard to go to school

i miss jaci the most
i miss the way she smells
i know thats creepy
but it is comforting
scents always comfort me
everyday i think about that time that she came and brought me books and layed next to me 
and read a magazine with me
it was the most wonderful thing she could have ever done.
but she doesn't talk to me any more
i don't really know why
i don't know what i did
i know i am crazy 
it is easier to try and accept things for the way they are then to pretend.

im sorry.