yay for being back

[i_am_trav]

well im finally bak in jersey, horah, nothing has changed, the her no longer is going to be anything anymore, go figure, every time, every effin time, i got 2 calenders down there, 1 for jim, 1 for meg, my mp3 player is broken and im getting it replaced tomorrow, the family is good, but i feel like absolute shit, ive been soo damn tierd, and shitty i just want to crawl up and basically die.

i want to get a ninja sword

i want to make a band (ska)

i want to get better at trumpet

i want to get some muscles

i want to be attractive

i want to have my own damn car

i want my life to make sense for at least a second

i want to find a purpose to my existence

i want sooo much, but i have sooo little to give...

i hate me, more than my father...

good night