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[i_am_trav]

where do i begin, this day was utter chaos. It started in the night with one of the craziest dreams i have ever had, and i remember it all too well. It starts off with me at work, and im going on a break, but i go home and the girl i long for is there with me and i felt like she was sooo close yet sooo far. then john celis outta no where comes by with a station wagon and like 15 people in it asking me for a ride back to work, and im running late by an hour from my break and i start to drive off, then i realize this isn't my car, i turn around and nearly run over a kid in the street playing with balls, then nearly crash trying to stop. my uncle from another states come outta no where and warns me to be more careful. then im up in my room and i jump out of my window and run to my car, i drive there and i get fired for being really late, and im depressed now, then everything goes to shit mode and everything bad starts to happen, friends hate me, family like disowns me and everything bad. i wake up depressed as hell, at 6 in the mornin, i go back to sleep and haev the same dream again, and wake up at 9 still depressed. i tel my mom about this dream and she says that i feel like im not in control of my life. bs, im freakin out about life, i dont know where im going i cannot keep things organized and i fear the future of a failure. i did chores for a while outside and finished wrapping gifts for my friends and family. met jim at the library and took his pic for a class. then took 20 minutes to get into the mall and parked rediculously far away. work was insane and i was "tweakin" like crazy. left work at 11 stressed out and got home and came here. im starting to look foreward to the break, but im not looking foreward to my future after the break, i have this fear that everything after this break is going to go down hill and into a thorn bush. right now i hope i can sleep soundly cause i have work at 9 till 5, o joy, its my moms birthday tomorrow and shawnes having a party which i unfortunately cannot attend. Monday im handing out gifts and we are having our holiday concert then, tuesday is squat, wednesday i believe is work, then thursday i play at shoprite, friday is nothing, and saturday is work, sunday is christmas, then a vaca to NC for 5 days, joy. goodnight kids, hope u all have a wonderful time doing whatever makes u happy.

Trav
a.k.a Tweak/ really stressed out modda trucka