Just a quickie before work
I have been sick for like a week now, and I can honestly say that I am going out of my mind. I honestly HATE being sick. I am so miserable. It's like I didn't mind it much as a kid, because someone took care of me and I wasn't running around trying to continue life. Now there is no one but me, and I have to work every day. Its insane.
New job is going REALLY well. I am defintly happy with the change. I hope I stay this happy, because lord knows I need one aspect of my life to be fulfilling at this point. I can't stand all the other areas I am constantly dwelling in.
Which brings me to yet ANOTHER point. I am fucking stupid. Swear to goodness. I preach all the time about honesty and how its important to be as honest as possible even if it hurts. Except I am not honest about how I feel, because I am afraid it might hurt ME. It is this fear of taking chances, this lack of faith in the leap, that places a big role in why I am still single after a year! I understand when me and Jeremy broke up I was single for almost a year, but that was because I was devasted and quite heart broken. But this time that is hardly the case. There are so many things I want to say to one particular person, and I honestly don't have the courage to say them. I put myself to shame over this. Really truly.
Anyway, I have to go to work. Hope all is well with the world.
New job is going REALLY well. I am defintly happy with the change. I hope I stay this happy, because lord knows I need one aspect of my life to be fulfilling at this point. I can't stand all the other areas I am constantly dwelling in.
Which brings me to yet ANOTHER point. I am fucking stupid. Swear to goodness. I preach all the time about honesty and how its important to be as honest as possible even if it hurts. Except I am not honest about how I feel, because I am afraid it might hurt ME. It is this fear of taking chances, this lack of faith in the leap, that places a big role in why I am still single after a year! I understand when me and Jeremy broke up I was single for almost a year, but that was because I was devasted and quite heart broken. But this time that is hardly the case. There are so many things I want to say to one particular person, and I honestly don't have the courage to say them. I put myself to shame over this. Really truly.
Anyway, I have to go to work. Hope all is well with the world.