...not too good

[i_am_the_movie]

(Take a deep breath in and hold it until your lungs are ready to explode, bursting pink and red, and you're suddenly incredibly dizzy. Ride with me. I want you to fucking feel this. I want to show you how the air is saturated with emotion and how the sky is a perfectly painted portrait. Let out your air and start spinning; just breathing today will get you high.) to much shit going through my head right now, This is so horrible... and now i am starting to not make any sence ::runing off:: all i have to do is run... no one will find me.. ill just keep running untill i run into the right thing.

now on to what everything is about...

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..............\.............\.... Fuck!!!!

this is my list of fucks....
FUCK!
fuck jobs,fuck selfish people,fuck love,fuck emotions, fuck ryan,fuck my knee,fuck mickey,fuck whoever came up with the word mickey,fuck KRISTIAN!!!!,fuck physical and mental abuse, fuck trends,fuck changing for people you love and then it doesn't work out the way you planned it to, fuck all sexists assholes that think women are worth nothing, fuck all the sexist bitches that think men are worth nothing, fuck racisim, fuck ignaronce, fuck everyone that talked shit behind my back and never had the balls to say it my face, fuck condoms, fuck drugs,fuck everyone who theere goal in life is to impress everyone around them just to be "cool", fuck friends who arn't so much friends anymore, fuck everyone who fucking told everyone about my personal life, fuck my boobs and there act to dissapear, fuck my parents being there when i didn't want them there... and not being there when i needed it the most, fuck people who rape people for self enjoyment!, fuck hair on your body other than on your head, fuck people who laugh at vegrant people,fuck pep band, fuck bad grades, fuck school, disorganized scatter-brained people, fuck broken noses, fuck the people other than my bro who lives with me, fuck inconviences, fuck the way i spell, fuck permanent depression, fuck vandals, fuck hypocrites (eventhogh sometimes i am one but fuck it anyways), fuck my impudent walk, fuck first impressions, fuck gangs, fuck violence, fuck hot dogs, fuck dress code, fuck criminals, fuck cheaters, fuck players, fuck distress, fuck yelling, fuck worrying about your apperance, fuck being heart broken, fuck not being voluptuous, fuck shoes other than sandles,fuck wanting everything, fuck trash, fuck homework, fuck tests, fuck bras, fuck dumbasses, fuck loren, fuck not being able to spend one wonderful day on base at the lake where michael took me..(i never knew it was there becuase the base built it after i moved), fuck the price of living, fuck cramps, fuck ashy skin, fuck pimples, fuck baby sitting heather, fuck not having a fun lunch anymore, fuck food, fuck eating, fuck not being able to go to any parties, fuck loneliness, fuck suicide, fuck bordom, fuck people who are cocky and stuck up to the point where they make you feel like shit, the list goes on, but i am too tired to write out anymore... if you can't tell i am sorta pissed at myself and everyone around me, it kinda sucks, but you know, soon enough i will be back to the perky, enjoyable person i am...

I hate being so nostalgic.. lol.. that's a joke..=]
this entry is a little inconvinient.