happy new years eve
i am updating now because i won't be home tonight.. lol not like anyone reads my entries anyways, but yeah anyways, tonight i plan to hang out with josh, i don't know who else is supposed to be there with us, but i know for sure me and josh will be together.
- i don't feel right, like something inside me feels like i am doiing something wrong, i don'tknow how to explain it. It is sorta weird...
-i talked to kris last night, he said that he wanted to take me to a concert sometime in janurary, i don't remember which day it was. but yeah i don't know if i am going to go or not, i don't even know the band that is going to be playing.. but yeah he told me to get the bands cd or something and he said if i like the band i can go.. so yeah, we'll see what happens..
- i got my hair cut today, wow it is super short... i told the lady that i only wnated it trimmed a little and maybe a little layers. and then she combed out my hair and there was a knot, and she went " chop" and there went me hair. omg i was going to cry!!! it looks sooo bad, like i look like donna off of that 70's show.. i mean it is cute, but not on me.. oh wel, there is nothing i can do about it now..=/
- i wonder how dean is doing.. anyone know him, lol i boubt it, he's great i went to a party of his, hmm.. he just sorta went throughmy minde today. I havn't seen him scince summer..
- my mom might have to go through sergury again. She isn't doing to well. i feel so bad for her. the doc said it is only supposed to happen 3 times in a period of 5 years and it has happened like 3 times in the past 6 months.. i know all the pain she is going through, it is sorta like when i wa sin the hospital right before we came here to the us. like they kept fucking poking my foot and shit with needles trying to draw bloode, and it hurt sooo much, and i know her pain is a bazzilion times more worse..so i sorta pitty her. she doesn't ned any more shit to go wrong, and she said that moving is all up to me.. why the hell is everything always fucking up to me?????? god.. it;s either we move to washington and my dad's happy.. and my bro's happy, or we stay her untill i graduate and then everyone is miserable.. ah!!!!
-Emily Dickinson
22
`I gave myself to him,
And took himself for pay.
The solemn contract of a life
Was ratified this way
`The value might disappoint,
Myself a poorer prove
Than this my purchaser suspect,
The daily own of Love
`Depreciates the sight;
But, 'til the merchant buy,
Still fabled, in the isles of spice
The subtle cargoes lie.
`At least, 'tis mutual risk,-
Some found it mutual gain;
Sweet debt of Life,-each night to owe,
Insolvent, every noon.
- i don't feel right, like something inside me feels like i am doiing something wrong, i don'tknow how to explain it. It is sorta weird...
-i talked to kris last night, he said that he wanted to take me to a concert sometime in janurary, i don't remember which day it was. but yeah i don't know if i am going to go or not, i don't even know the band that is going to be playing.. but yeah he told me to get the bands cd or something and he said if i like the band i can go.. so yeah, we'll see what happens..
- i got my hair cut today, wow it is super short... i told the lady that i only wnated it trimmed a little and maybe a little layers. and then she combed out my hair and there was a knot, and she went " chop" and there went me hair. omg i was going to cry!!! it looks sooo bad, like i look like donna off of that 70's show.. i mean it is cute, but not on me.. oh wel, there is nothing i can do about it now..=/
- i wonder how dean is doing.. anyone know him, lol i boubt it, he's great i went to a party of his, hmm.. he just sorta went throughmy minde today. I havn't seen him scince summer..
- my mom might have to go through sergury again. She isn't doing to well. i feel so bad for her. the doc said it is only supposed to happen 3 times in a period of 5 years and it has happened like 3 times in the past 6 months.. i know all the pain she is going through, it is sorta like when i wa sin the hospital right before we came here to the us. like they kept fucking poking my foot and shit with needles trying to draw bloode, and it hurt sooo much, and i know her pain is a bazzilion times more worse..so i sorta pitty her. she doesn't ned any more shit to go wrong, and she said that moving is all up to me.. why the hell is everything always fucking up to me?????? god.. it;s either we move to washington and my dad's happy.. and my bro's happy, or we stay her untill i graduate and then everyone is miserable.. ah!!!!
-Emily Dickinson
22
`I gave myself to him,
And took himself for pay.
The solemn contract of a life
Was ratified this way
`The value might disappoint,
Myself a poorer prove
Than this my purchaser suspect,
The daily own of Love
`Depreciates the sight;
But, 'til the merchant buy,
Still fabled, in the isles of spice
The subtle cargoes lie.
`At least, 'tis mutual risk,-
Some found it mutual gain;
Sweet debt of Life,-each night to owe,
Insolvent, every noon.