It totally is, and you're correct, it was quite embarrassing. Although, bravado might not be the best word for it as the action lacked both swagger and courage.
I could give you all kinds of reasons why I did it, but in the end it was basically just because I'm a big, dumb male. Rachel deserved better, as did all parties involved. It was a horrible thing to do, and quite honestly, a first for me. Most guys learn their lesson on that one early on, but I've always been a late bloomer.
I know because I'm the guy, by definition I'm going to be the asshole no matter my reasoning. I would defend myself, but I know it won't matter.
All the different parts of the before and after of the event I'm sure have been discussed in glaring detail already and by now my actions probably have been escalated to the kind of evil reserved for mass murderers and rapists... hell, even that statement or the fact that I'm writing this response will get reviewed, analyzed, made fun of, and so forth down to the spelling and grammar.
Trust me, after 38 years of this, while the details may be different, the basics are always going to be the same. It's just been taken from passed notes and hushed conversations in the hall to text messages and Facebook posts.
I've made my apologies and meant them. And while it's easy to say I'm just apologizing because I "got caught", in the end I know I said it because it needed to be said. The opinions of others in the matter will always be against me, so I'm just not going to sweat it... much.
I could say, "Do me a favor, and save it" here, but no one owes me a favor and it's not in anyone's nature to "save it", so knock yourself out. As you've probably realized, I know I've got it coming and the best I can hope for is that you stop just short of insulting my mother (she's already pissed at me, she really liked Rachel).
I could give you all kinds of reasons why I did it, but in the end it was basically just because I'm a big, dumb male. Rachel deserved better, as did all parties involved. It was a horrible thing to do, and quite honestly, a first for me. Most guys learn their lesson on that one early on, but I've always been a late bloomer.
I know because I'm the guy, by definition I'm going to be the asshole no matter my reasoning. I would defend myself, but I know it won't matter.
All the different parts of the before and after of the event I'm sure have been discussed in glaring detail already and by now my actions probably have been escalated to the kind of evil reserved for mass murderers and rapists... hell, even that statement or the fact that I'm writing this response will get reviewed, analyzed, made fun of, and so forth down to the spelling and grammar.
Trust me, after 38 years of this, while the details may be different, the basics are always going to be the same. It's just been taken from passed notes and hushed conversations in the hall to text messages and Facebook posts.
I've made my apologies and meant them. And while it's easy to say I'm just apologizing because I "got caught", in the end I know I said it because it needed to be said. The opinions of others in the matter will always be against me, so I'm just not going to sweat it... much.
I could say, "Do me a favor, and save it" here, but no one owes me a favor and it's not in anyone's nature to "save it", so knock yourself out. As you've probably realized, I know I've got it coming and the best I can hope for is that you stop just short of insulting my mother (she's already pissed at me, she really liked Rachel).
Anyway, thanks for the shout out.
Yours always in douche baggery,
Jeff
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