just a thought...
i just think it's funny how one day you're only minding your own business, living life like you normally do, going through your everyday routine mindlessly then someone (anyone actually) comes in the picture and stays. you ignore them and know that they'll go away on their own, eventually, but they don't. they don't ask for your permission if they can invade your mind every night, they don't need your consent to make you yearn for them when you're alone, they make you miss them though you've seen them maybe just a few moments ago.
they don't break down your walls but they slip through the cracks without you being aware and when you do acknowledge it, it's too late. they've stuck and there's nothing you can do about it.
they become a normal occurrence, they become part of what you've always known and then one day, when it all becomes too much, when you no longer want them, you can't push them away because as days grow, you realize you don't want them to leave and you can't take the toll if ever they decide to go.
i think it's just downright hilarious how that person becomes your world and you easily give your heart to them without them even knowing. you would do anything just to keep that same warm smile on their face, even if it means risking your own happiness as you watch them hold hands with someone else.
you tell yourself, it's okay kid, it's okay, because someday, you know, it's going to be your turn and it's just that right now, you're at the bottom of the spinning wheel.
sometimes you wonder if the wheel has already stopped and you wonder if it's already time to let go because at one point, the pain becomes too much and when you cry alone at the one dark corner of your room, you realize you've always been alone and that person will never want you back like you wanted them to. like what you've loved them for.
you would want your world and your heart again, remove it from their possession because it's clear they don't need it anymore (or if they've ever needed it) and it's time that you would need it for yourself. you would want to surrender the fight and you put the war on hold because it's all unfruitful and there will come a time that you won't know what you're even fighting for in the first place.
but when they do return these two items to you, your heart's already broken beyond repair and your world's already shattered that all you need now is to breathe and simply want everything to just stop.
they don't break down your walls but they slip through the cracks without you being aware and when you do acknowledge it, it's too late. they've stuck and there's nothing you can do about it.
they become a normal occurrence, they become part of what you've always known and then one day, when it all becomes too much, when you no longer want them, you can't push them away because as days grow, you realize you don't want them to leave and you can't take the toll if ever they decide to go.
i think it's just downright hilarious how that person becomes your world and you easily give your heart to them without them even knowing. you would do anything just to keep that same warm smile on their face, even if it means risking your own happiness as you watch them hold hands with someone else.
you tell yourself, it's okay kid, it's okay, because someday, you know, it's going to be your turn and it's just that right now, you're at the bottom of the spinning wheel.
sometimes you wonder if the wheel has already stopped and you wonder if it's already time to let go because at one point, the pain becomes too much and when you cry alone at the one dark corner of your room, you realize you've always been alone and that person will never want you back like you wanted them to. like what you've loved them for.
you would want your world and your heart again, remove it from their possession because it's clear they don't need it anymore (or if they've ever needed it) and it's time that you would need it for yourself. you would want to surrender the fight and you put the war on hold because it's all unfruitful and there will come a time that you won't know what you're even fighting for in the first place.
but when they do return these two items to you, your heart's already broken beyond repair and your world's already shattered that all you need now is to breathe and simply want everything to just stop.