so stupid
Said in a conversation between a friend of mine and an asshole
'boynamedasshole': she's just a total heinous bitch with no feelings or concern about me.
I told her to leave me alone and not come to my fucking shows, she could die for all I care.
but she came to my show and drug her fiance along with her.
I basically manage the band now.
if you don't like the way I roll you can fuck off.
without me they wouldn't be 'band name'.
I'd ask security to make you leave.
then I won't play. and if I don't play, then 'band name' doesn't play.
it's that simple.
I can't believe that you are still stuck on that shit. It's been over 5 months since that shit went down, and the way you talk about it almost as if it happened yesterday. Yeah, I fucked up. Yeah, I handled it wrong. Yeah, I didn't say I'm sorry (even though I wanted to. Even though he wouldn't have accepted it.). But damn, get over it already. I mean come on. If I didn't have that big of an affect on you why are you still pissed? You need to let it go. I tried to say I'm sorry, but how could I do that when you sent me an email bashing the shit out of me. To this day I would say I'm sorry if I knew you wouldn't be a complete ass about it while I was apologizing. But I am not going to say that I am sorry for the outcome, because I'm not. I am very happy with the way my life is heading. I love my fiance more than I ever knew possible. I will tell you that I am sorry for the way I was with you. I'm sorry that I didn't take your feelings into consideration. But I can honestly say that I did care about you. I didn't pay attention to what was really going on with us, I honestly thought that we just friends. Looking back on the situation, I have remembered many different occasions where I did send you mixed signals, and for that I am truly sorry. I really didn't mean to do anything to upset you. I am so sorry that it has come to this, and I finally don't give a shit what you think, or what you are going to say about me. I've said what I've had to say, even though I know you will never read this.
After saying all of that shit, I can actually say what this entry was really supposed to be about. You can try to kick me out, but I'm not gonna leave. You need to realize that there are going to be people at your shows that you don't like. You just need to go about your business as if they weren't there. I am NOT going to javajazz to see you guys play, I am going to hang out with some of my friends (that aren't going to see you guys) and hear a good band. I don't want to have anything to do with you and your band. Not because I hate you guys, but because I don't want to start any shit. I know you are probably thinking that me showing up is causing shit, and I'm sorry you feel that way, but I am not going to avoid a show just because you are there. I have friends that are in bands, and there are going to be times where they play with your band, and yes I will be there, and no I will not get in your way. The point I am trying to make is that you need to get past what happened and get used to the fact that you might have to see me at some of your shows. It's justa part of life, and I am not going to tip toe around you to be able to my friends.
Don't threaten to kick me out of a venue just because you aren't going to be able to play if I am there. It's childish, and you are a grown man, so start acting like it. I know I fucked up (and that you don't give a shit) so just let it go.
*Do I sound stupid in this? Am I wrong for thinking what I do? Should I go to the show to see my friends' band play even though he doesn't want me to?*
'boynamedasshole': she's just a total heinous bitch with no feelings or concern about me.
I told her to leave me alone and not come to my fucking shows, she could die for all I care.
but she came to my show and drug her fiance along with her.
I basically manage the band now.
if you don't like the way I roll you can fuck off.
without me they wouldn't be 'band name'.
I'd ask security to make you leave.
then I won't play. and if I don't play, then 'band name' doesn't play.
it's that simple.
I can't believe that you are still stuck on that shit. It's been over 5 months since that shit went down, and the way you talk about it almost as if it happened yesterday. Yeah, I fucked up. Yeah, I handled it wrong. Yeah, I didn't say I'm sorry (even though I wanted to. Even though he wouldn't have accepted it.). But damn, get over it already. I mean come on. If I didn't have that big of an affect on you why are you still pissed? You need to let it go. I tried to say I'm sorry, but how could I do that when you sent me an email bashing the shit out of me. To this day I would say I'm sorry if I knew you wouldn't be a complete ass about it while I was apologizing. But I am not going to say that I am sorry for the outcome, because I'm not. I am very happy with the way my life is heading. I love my fiance more than I ever knew possible. I will tell you that I am sorry for the way I was with you. I'm sorry that I didn't take your feelings into consideration. But I can honestly say that I did care about you. I didn't pay attention to what was really going on with us, I honestly thought that we just friends. Looking back on the situation, I have remembered many different occasions where I did send you mixed signals, and for that I am truly sorry. I really didn't mean to do anything to upset you. I am so sorry that it has come to this, and I finally don't give a shit what you think, or what you are going to say about me. I've said what I've had to say, even though I know you will never read this.
After saying all of that shit, I can actually say what this entry was really supposed to be about. You can try to kick me out, but I'm not gonna leave. You need to realize that there are going to be people at your shows that you don't like. You just need to go about your business as if they weren't there. I am NOT going to javajazz to see you guys play, I am going to hang out with some of my friends (that aren't going to see you guys) and hear a good band. I don't want to have anything to do with you and your band. Not because I hate you guys, but because I don't want to start any shit. I know you are probably thinking that me showing up is causing shit, and I'm sorry you feel that way, but I am not going to avoid a show just because you are there. I have friends that are in bands, and there are going to be times where they play with your band, and yes I will be there, and no I will not get in your way. The point I am trying to make is that you need to get past what happened and get used to the fact that you might have to see me at some of your shows. It's justa part of life, and I am not going to tip toe around you to be able to my friends.
Don't threaten to kick me out of a venue just because you aren't going to be able to play if I am there. It's childish, and you are a grown man, so start acting like it. I know I fucked up (and that you don't give a shit) so just let it go.
*Do I sound stupid in this? Am I wrong for thinking what I do? Should I go to the show to see my friends' band play even though he doesn't want me to?*