To everyone but me

[i_am_star]

I have noticed that people have been saying that it's weird hanging out with Nathan and me. Or that it would be weird if we all went to the movies. Or just out for that matter. But I don't see it. Sometimes I feel as if it is an excuse they used to get out of hanging out with me. It's a good solid one b/c I would never want to make any of my friends uncomfortable. I just don't know anymore. I had a blast hanging out with them, and now all of a sudden we are all too busy to hang out again. And when they have time they call him, which makes sense seeing as how they were all friends first and he lives closer. It just hurts sometimes, b/c I know that I would drive around the world to hang out with them, but I feel as if they wouldn't do the same. I am ashamed to say that this is one of the reasons I have been avoiding church. Well that and the fact that I have been working and very tired. Sometimes I just want to give up. I just don't care anymore. Nathan and I aren't together anymore so now no one has to put up with me. Maybe I should hang out with my old friends again.

Lost and alone...