Off the hook
This weekend was so amazing...that doesn't even do justice to how wonderful and life altering this weekend has been. I spent the whole weekend with some of the best people I have ever met, and while not all of them could be there in person, there were still there just the same.
I was finally able to completely let go of something that has been troubling me for awhile now, and through Ashlee God showed me that I am an awesome person, and that I am going to be OK. :) Friendships grew this weekend, as did many relationships with God.
On Sunday morning Kyle stepped on some toes of the parents' at the church, and I am very proud of him for getting up there. When he first got up there you could see his hands shaking so badly, you knew he had to be scared. I know I would be. But with God's help he was able to blow many parents out of the water. But there where those who didn't have family there, for we are the ones who stand out in our family and choose to follow God without the spirtual guidance of our parents. God over filled my heart with joy and hope when Momma Hoskins came up to me and told me that she would be my spirtual mother. I cried so hard, God has answered so many prayers this weekend. I didn't know I could be this happy, this...whole.
Sunday evening during Reflections Cori got up to speak about what Kyle had said that morning and she asked all of the ones who don't have spirtual leaders in their homes to come up to the front of the room so that they could pray for us. As I was standing at the front watching everyone come up, I realized just how much I have in common with some of them. I never realized how many of my friends are going through some of the same things that I am. When we were standing there I was praying for everyone around me. All of my friends who have to deal with the same fight with faith that I do. We are the people who have to go home and fight with Satan through our family. Some have it easier than others. Some have parents who are christians, but their parents choose to put other things before God, or they don't want to be the spirtual leaders of their family. Some of us have to be the spirtual leaders of our family, and it is a very difficult thing to do. If you are reading this and are dealing with this at home, just remember you are not alone. God is with you, and I will be praying for you. I am here for anyone who needs a shoulder to cry or just someone to talk to. Feel free to call me. I love you all very much.
I was finally able to completely let go of something that has been troubling me for awhile now, and through Ashlee God showed me that I am an awesome person, and that I am going to be OK. :) Friendships grew this weekend, as did many relationships with God.
On Sunday morning Kyle stepped on some toes of the parents' at the church, and I am very proud of him for getting up there. When he first got up there you could see his hands shaking so badly, you knew he had to be scared. I know I would be. But with God's help he was able to blow many parents out of the water. But there where those who didn't have family there, for we are the ones who stand out in our family and choose to follow God without the spirtual guidance of our parents. God over filled my heart with joy and hope when Momma Hoskins came up to me and told me that she would be my spirtual mother. I cried so hard, God has answered so many prayers this weekend. I didn't know I could be this happy, this...whole.
Sunday evening during Reflections Cori got up to speak about what Kyle had said that morning and she asked all of the ones who don't have spirtual leaders in their homes to come up to the front of the room so that they could pray for us. As I was standing at the front watching everyone come up, I realized just how much I have in common with some of them. I never realized how many of my friends are going through some of the same things that I am. When we were standing there I was praying for everyone around me. All of my friends who have to deal with the same fight with faith that I do. We are the people who have to go home and fight with Satan through our family. Some have it easier than others. Some have parents who are christians, but their parents choose to put other things before God, or they don't want to be the spirtual leaders of their family. Some of us have to be the spirtual leaders of our family, and it is a very difficult thing to do. If you are reading this and are dealing with this at home, just remember you are not alone. God is with you, and I will be praying for you. I am here for anyone who needs a shoulder to cry or just someone to talk to. Feel free to call me. I love you all very much.