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Ok so life was going great until... My girlfriend broke up with me out of no where. It fucking sucks. I was so happy with her. The day after I kicked my roommate out for dumped me like it was nothing. Now I am sick and at work and no able to sleep at night. She was so good to me but somehow it changed for the bad. I don't understand what I did or didn't do. She said she was unhappy but she doesn't know why. She wants time to think about "us". I don't know if I will be there for her when she finds out what she wants. I waited for her for 3 years and now she wants me to wait again. I don't know. I am just so hurt by all this. I want her to be happy and if that is with someone eles then so be it. I will still have that love for her and that will never change and I hope she knows that. When she needs a friend to talk to I will be there to lising. When she is hurt my shoulder will be hers to cry on. I will never forget her and what she did for me and how she made me a better person and helped me get back on my feet. I have a great job because of her and I have learned so many things about myself because of her. I guess in the long run I will become even more of a better person because of her and I can only thank her for that.

The pain will go away sooner or later but you will always be a big part of my life and like I have said before I love you and nothing can ever change that. I will always have my arms open for you to fall into if you need to. I hope that you find a great person and live a happy life. I miss you and I love you and I leave you be.

Why does it have to hurt inside?
Why do I have to cry each night?
I think I have to walk on by...
Cuz I'm starting to lose my sight...

What is it that changed your mind?
Who is it that keeps you blind?
Why did you change so fast?
Did you really have to leave me behind?

I start to think about all we had
And how it turned this way...
I guess I'll have to leave your side,
And turn my face away...

Although my soul will die...
Although my heart will cry...
I've got nothing else to do,
I'm hurt deep inside

But although I'll leave your side,
You'll be always on my mind...
My heart and soul will ache for you,
Every day and every night...

You're my never-ending love,
The love that keeps me alive...
You're the one I'll love forever,
Although it hurts inside...