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[i_am_rubber]

yeah.
so about that.
its niether one.
kind of like. ehhhhh....
im getting so sick of DDR.
alot of people bother me now.
i find myself secretly punishing myself for thinking bad things.
like shooting people with a shotgun.

life all of a sudden took a turn for the worse.
its like it was shitty. then it was amazing.
i relapsed.

fuck right?

HIM is without a doubt going to be orgasmic on friday. i sure do hope they play all of razorblade romance.
and love said no.

i love that band. and what a band it is to love.

school tomorrow. 1-6.
thats gunnuh be wierd.

mother now knows i smoke.
and...
shes "ok" with it.
she doesnt like it. at all.
but she told me that i am my own god. and she cant tell me what to do with myself.
or how to find that social break.

i found something out.

as much as i love marijuana.
it does indeed make you lazy. and kind of slow.
not stupid though. just a little slow.

i dont have the will to work out anymore.
i want to. i really do.
but i have no drive.

i need to figure some shit out.

ah! neptune. the bong.
it is indeed a freak.
i puked my brains out last night.
after 3 (three) hits.
"what?!?!?!?!"
you say.
yeah. i know. what the fuck.
that was the most high ive ever been.
5 hits from the bong killed me.
after about 5 minutes i went into this 15 minute trip.
i didnt really know what was going on.
but the SKYY and smirnoff bottles were being mean to me.
and the blanket understood everything but the words that were comming out of my mouth.

drugs are funny.

have a goodnight everyone.

fairwell.