thunderstorms will never stop me

[i_am_one_voice]

i had another break down today. figures huh. me and nick are taking a break.  he is going to  be at lucass tomorow. hes not taking me. he doesnt want to. why am i so heartbroken. i poured my heart and soul out to him today i was sobbing. i was talking about how i was so confused and how he deserves better and how i dont know which way is up and how

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[lostxinxwndrlnd]

chelesa, if he seriously told you that he wasn't in love with you anymore then he isn't worth it. it took me FOREVER to get the nerve up to get rid of "him," but i did it for myself and you should too. bf's are suppose to build you up, not tear you downlike he's doing. he's making you feel down on yourself and like you're not worth shit. it's exactly what "he" did to me and i had had enough. yes, i still love him and i went into a panic attach while i tried to do it because he said he still loved me, but i did it. i thought about all the shit he had said to me, all the times he didn't care, the times he never wanted to see me because of his friends, and hwo our anniversary passed without so much as an "i love you."

i just had to listen to everyone around me and make myself believe what i'd been afraid to believe all along: he was made of bullshit, would say anything to make me feel like it was my fault, and try and put on a pity party to make me not break up with him (you know, i even bet he wasnt as sad as he said he was. he's probaby partying with sam right now), and he did not respsect me or my feelings in any way, shape or form. nick sounds like he's doing the same thing. it hurts worse than any pain i could ever imagine...but it needed to be done, and in my opinion, you need to do the same. for YOU. and my mom even said: "you can't lose something you don't have," and if your bf says shit to you, you don't have him.

i hope this helps. i just care about you and don't want to see you hurt. guys suck ass *huggles*