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a whole year of college. i start school friday.
i've changed a lot this year. you've all seen me change. lost weight, got pale, turned bi, grew bangs, cut my hair, gained the weight back, tanned, everything fuck it.
i really dont care what anyone thinks of me anymore.
you can hate me for taking antidepressants
call me a fag for getting sucked off by a guy
think i'm spoiled for getting a new car after i totalled my old one
think i'm a lazy fuck for failing out of school
think i'm crazy for having a restraining order placed
fuck you. i dont care.
i'm happy. i wake up early. i go to bed before 1.
i smile.
i giggle.
i laugh.
i work out.
i go outside to read.
i work at starbucks.
i talk to strangers.
i teach guitar lessons.
i dont eat fast food.
i dont drink soda.
i dont drink hard alcohol.
i smoke weed.
i drink beer.
i drink way to much coffee.
i had a mohawk, i had bangs, i had shaggy hair, i had a buzz.
i failed out of school.
i got back in. sorta.
i got a pet hampster.
i love my girlfriend.
i look back and think this year was horrible. it was hard for sure. i've never had to deal with half the shit i had to this year. and i hope i wont ever have to deal with most of that shit again. but just maybe i think it was good for me.
did i grow up? i dont think so. i simply changed, and found what makes me happy. i found who i want to be and who i want to be around.
i dont sit and wish for things to turn out perfect this year. i dont. i know this year will have its ups and its downs. i know it. i know that i have a friend who will stand by my side in thick or thin. i dont thank him enough for that. so thank you wade for being there this entire year, even through the ugly shit. i know i have a girl i'm crazy about. who makes me smile, always makes me happy to be around, and visits me at work to hang out for 30 minutes during my lunch break. <3
so. i have many things to look forward to this year.
the end.
i've changed a lot this year. you've all seen me change. lost weight, got pale, turned bi, grew bangs, cut my hair, gained the weight back, tanned, everything fuck it.
i really dont care what anyone thinks of me anymore.
you can hate me for taking antidepressants
call me a fag for getting sucked off by a guy
think i'm spoiled for getting a new car after i totalled my old one
think i'm a lazy fuck for failing out of school
think i'm crazy for having a restraining order placed
fuck you. i dont care.
i'm happy. i wake up early. i go to bed before 1.
i smile.
i giggle.
i laugh.
i work out.
i go outside to read.
i work at starbucks.
i talk to strangers.
i teach guitar lessons.
i dont eat fast food.
i dont drink soda.
i dont drink hard alcohol.
i smoke weed.
i drink beer.
i drink way to much coffee.
i had a mohawk, i had bangs, i had shaggy hair, i had a buzz.
i failed out of school.
i got back in. sorta.
i got a pet hampster.
i love my girlfriend.
i look back and think this year was horrible. it was hard for sure. i've never had to deal with half the shit i had to this year. and i hope i wont ever have to deal with most of that shit again. but just maybe i think it was good for me.
did i grow up? i dont think so. i simply changed, and found what makes me happy. i found who i want to be and who i want to be around.
i dont sit and wish for things to turn out perfect this year. i dont. i know this year will have its ups and its downs. i know it. i know that i have a friend who will stand by my side in thick or thin. i dont thank him enough for that. so thank you wade for being there this entire year, even through the ugly shit. i know i have a girl i'm crazy about. who makes me smile, always makes me happy to be around, and visits me at work to hang out for 30 minutes during my lunch break. <3
so. i have many things to look forward to this year.
the end.