[one-shot] Incomplete + Night Calls
Title : Incomplete (one-shot / songfic)
Pairing : Maruyama Ryuhei/Shibutani Subaru (Baru POV) - with extra implied OhYass
Rating : PG-13. really.
Song : Incomplete by the Backstreet Boys (♥)
Genre : Romance / angst-ish / fluff.
NB : It popped up like that, and at first I didn't really know what was the pairing. I just knew that I was seeing Baru as the main character. It turned out MaruBaru! ♥ Unbeta'ed, mistakes by yours truly.
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Empty spaces fill me up with holes…
Distant faces with no place left to go…
I wake up in an empty bed, and yet I can't bring myself to care. It's just a morning like thousands before, a day like so many more. I get up, I take what you could call a breakfast, I shower up, and here I go. Like everyday.
With or without you, I have to go on.
Without you within me I can't find no rest…
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess…
I barely sleep at night, and I guess it shows. My eyes feel heavy, but yet I don't allow myself to space out. I need to stay awake. Sleep is for tonight. If I manage to sleep…
It's not that I think too much to actually rest. Nor that I want to stay awake. It's just that slumber doesn't come to me. When you were with me, I was always fast asleep, like a baby. My nights were empty of nightmares, I felt good.
Now it's all over.
I tried to go on like I never knew you…
I’m awake but my world is half asleep…
It's like all the colors have slowly faded to grey. I used to take note of anything that was passing by my eyes, I used to listen to any sound. Now it's like I'm deaf and blind. I see but I don't watch. I hear but I don't listen. I feel empty, and the world around seems even more empty. People may jostle me in the bus or the street, I don't even feel it.
It's like the whole universe is in "pause" mode.
I pray for this heart to be unbroken,
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete…
People always said I was a happy guy, someone always laughing and joking, but compared to you I'm nothing. Since the first time I met you, when we were younger, you've always make me smile. When I got depressed or tired, you were next to me, being like a cheerleader behind a team, telling me jokes and one-liner so I would laugh again, pushing me to work harder to be the best one.
You made me how I am today.
Yet I'm nothing without you.
Voices tell me I should carry on,
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone…
I'm at work, finally, earlier than I should, but who cares. I'm not even in our changing room that I hear your voice in the hallway, so clear, so loud, so reassuring. Like an anchor to everything. Our team could burst in pieces that I would still be alright, as long as you're close to me.
I walk in, and the guys are all waving at me, Yasu giggling and Yoko messing with my hair. I smile, I wave back, I look at you. You smile, you look into my eyes, and yet you don't say anything. You don't have to, I know perfectly how you used to great me, how you will never great me the same way again. I see Hina's eyes on me, and when I look at him, he has this face telling me he's worried.
I know what he thinks. I should move on.
But I can't.
Baby, my baby, It’s written on your face,
You still wonder if we made a big mistake.
The day goes by the way it always does, slowly but steadily. No time to be bored, just enough to be comfortably busy. We have rehearsals, interviews, TV shows. In front of the cameras, I'm bouncy and talkative, yet once everything's filmed, I turn silent. If you're not talking to me, I don't talk either. Not that I don't want to. I just have no need to. When Tacchon asks me something, I nod. When Ryo talks to me, I nod again, with a little appreciative sound. But I don't talk. It's when I turn to look at you and I see you frowning that I realise that you noticed my lack of talking.
I can't help but blush and look away.
I can't help but hope.
I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go.
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone…
And I don't want to face it alone either. Before, I always said that the eight or seven of us was enough for me to feel surrounded, in a good way. Now I feel alone everytime you're in another room. If I don't see you around, it feels like the whole place is empty. I know it's not nice for our friends, but it's not like if I can choose what I feel.
It's only been a month since we decided to break up, and it seems like it's been years, decades, centuries. Too long in any way. I need you with me.
Sorry for loving you this much.
I tried to go on like I never knew you…
I’m awake but my world is half asleep…
I get dragged with the boys into a bar. Long time since we all went to drink together. We sit down, and you're next to me, shifting, uneasy. The look in Yoko's eyes tells me he planned this, but I can't be sure.
This evening passes by unnoticed. I've drank too many beers to actually count them, and I feel warm inside. Or maybe it's you next to me who makes me feel this way. Your leg is touching mine, and even if I try to rationalize and think that it's Yasu's fault - because he's too busy kissing Tacchon to actually see that he's squeezing you against me - even if I think about this, I can't help but feeling thrilled, because maybe you're the one wanting to be close to me. Maybe you still love me. Maybe we can start over.
The look on your face tells me I thought out loud. The sparkles in your eyes tell me that it's a good thing. Your hand moving to grab mine tells me we think the same thing.
I pray for this heart to be unbroken,
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete.
I wake up in an empty bed, and yet I can't bring myself to care. Maybe it's because of the delicious sent that fills the whole flat. Maybe it's because of you, walking in the bedroom with only your underwear and a t-shirt on you, hands full with a tray which itself is full with our breakfast.
You sit next to me on the bed, putting the tray between us, and your smile is so bright it could be the sun itself. You hug me, and I feel like the happiest guy on Earth. You kiss me and I could cry of happiness.
With or without you, I have to go on.
But I can't live without you.
.OWARI.
******
Title : Night Calls (one-shot)
Pairing : Yokoyama Yuu/Murakami Shingo/Maruyama Ryuhei + Sakurai Sho (OT4 \o/)
Rating : PG-15. for swearing.
Genre : Romance / humor / fluff / crack-ish.
NB : This one is for the Great Bunny Who Knows Everything, because the plot was half her idea. Because YokoMaruHina is pure win, and Sho loves the squirrels the boys. Really. Unbeta'ed, you know who to blame.
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It's nothing he could have helped, really. Maybe it's his babysitter side which shows up too much, maybe those guys are really kids in need of attention, or maybe it's simply his bad luck. Neither one of those reasons seems good enough, so he just lets go and watches sleepily as his cellphone blinks and vibrates on his side table.
He's not fully awake - being woken up at three in the morning isn't really in his top list of things to do, and yet it happens - but he still grabs his phone, almost making it fall to the floor while he sits up in his bed, and sighs heavily.
The screen writes "unknown" in big bold letters, but Sho knows perfectly who it is. He hopes they have a really good reason to call this late as he picks up.
There are giggles in the room. The lights are all off, except the small lamp on the floor, next to the huge bed, which gives just enough light to see what they're doing. The three boys are all sitting huddled together around one cellphone, a bit dizzy from the beer they drank earlier. A soft breeze comes from the open window, and the alarm clock displays 3:02 in red numbers.
Maru giggles, sharing a glance with Yoko who's literally bouncing on his seat, while Hina smiles and begins to dial. The oldest stops moving and mentions the youngest to make silence. Ryuhei puts a hand in front of his mouth to stop the sounds he's making, but it barely keeps the noises to a minimum. Shingo sighs and presses the "call" button, chewing his bottom lip in anticipation, before putting the sound loud enough so they will all hear. The ringtone can be heard once, twice, thrice, and then there's a click and they hold their breaths.
- Moshi moshi?
Sho hears nothing at first, and then there's a faint giggle in the background and some shuffling. He can almost picture them, waiting expectantly. They know that's he's in Osaka for a few days, so they couldn't help but call, of course. Not that he hates being awoken like that, because he knows that they miss him as much as he misses them, but still…
- Seriously guys, he sighs, I have work tomorrow you know!
There are some whispering, more silly giggling - he can tell it's Maru even if no one talked yet - and a loud laugh surprises him and makes him jump in his bed.
- Worst than kids…
Maru giggles madly as Hina bursts in laughter, and Yoko laughs too but smacks his friend.
- Damn Gorilla, you ruined the surprise!
Hina smacks him back, still laughing like mad, and Maru take benefit of their little fight to take the phone, shouting cheerfully :
- PAAAAAAN!!
Sho growls and takes the phone away from his ear. Really, this time they went too far. He has to wake up in less than three hours and he's never going to make it in time at this rate.
Sighing, he ends the call and puts his phone in silent mode, then gets back to sleep grumpily.
Tomorrow they'll pay for this. Really.
Ryuhei's eyes turn wide as the beep-beeps tell him that the barely older man did cut the line. He looks at the phone, puzzled and pouting, and Shingo and Yuu both stop their quarrel when they see the other boy's face. Yoko comes closer and asks:
- What's wrong?
Maru pouts even more.
- He hung up, the bassist whines. I couldn't even talk to him…
Hina frowns and takes the phone, checking, and sees that the call is ended indeed.
- We shouldn't have woken him up at this hour, he sighs. He's going to be pissed now.
Yoko growls and Hina hugs Maru who really looks sad by now. The older of the three Kanjanis takes back the cellphone and dials again, nearly infuriated. He hears it ring ten times, before getting on voicemail.
- What the fuck you think you're doing, he yells in the speaker, Maru-chan is sad now because of you! You selfish bastard! He just wanted to talk to you, like we all wanted to! I don't want to hear about you anymore!
Hina shrugs, knowing perfectly that right now it's the beer in Yuu's body which is talking and that in ten hours Yoko will have forgotten what he's currently saying and will hug Sho like if they didn't saw each other for a year - even it's only been a week since their last encounter; Maru, on the other side, is still pouting and whining in Hina's arms, seeking the older boy's affection, which is not hard to find in the end.
Finally, Yoko stops growling like a bear and leads both his friends to bed, the older ones taking care of the younger - and still slightly pouting - member.
It's eleven in the morning and the interviews have been cancelled, so Sho has nothing to do. Aiba asked him to go and get ramen, but the boy has other plans, really.
Said plans involve getting pissed at three boys who apparently had nothing better to do at three in the morning than waking him up and shout in the phone, not to talk about Yoko's message. Sho didn't understand everything because his older friend was seriously talking too fast and too loud, but he heard pretty neatly the words 'selfish bastard', and he doesn't like this, not at all. Might as well tell the boy face to face.
Getting inside their flat isn't difficult as he have a spare key, but the absence of noises makes him wonder if they worked or not today. He pads silently through the living-room and the corridor, before stopping in front of the bedroom. From the half-opened door, he can see them sleeping, still fully clothes, and he takes a deep breath before coming in.
Yet he stops dead in his track.
Maru is sleeping on his back, with his head on Yoko's chest, while his arms are around Hina's shoulder, gripping him tight. Yuu's arm is going above Maru's head, into Shingo's hairs, and the Hina's own hand is going past Maru waist to clutch at Yoko's t-shirt.
Sho looks at them, all entangled and peacefully sleeping, and decides that, really, he can't be mad at them, not when they look so cute. He goes to them cautiously, taking care not to wake neither of them, and kisses each one of them on the forehead before dashing to the kitchen.
Maybe the sent of breakfast would wake them, might as well try that out.
.OWARI.
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Also, to moka_n_waffles : your Subassan is almost done, eheh! ;D
Pairing : Maruyama Ryuhei/Shibutani Subaru (Baru POV) - with extra implied OhYass
Rating : PG-13. really.
Song : Incomplete by the Backstreet Boys (♥)
Genre : Romance / angst-ish / fluff.
NB : It popped up like that, and at first I didn't really know what was the pairing. I just knew that I was seeing Baru as the main character. It turned out MaruBaru! ♥ Unbeta'ed, mistakes by yours truly.
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Empty spaces fill me up with holes…
Distant faces with no place left to go…
I wake up in an empty bed, and yet I can't bring myself to care. It's just a morning like thousands before, a day like so many more. I get up, I take what you could call a breakfast, I shower up, and here I go. Like everyday.
With or without you, I have to go on.
Without you within me I can't find no rest…
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess…
I barely sleep at night, and I guess it shows. My eyes feel heavy, but yet I don't allow myself to space out. I need to stay awake. Sleep is for tonight. If I manage to sleep…
It's not that I think too much to actually rest. Nor that I want to stay awake. It's just that slumber doesn't come to me. When you were with me, I was always fast asleep, like a baby. My nights were empty of nightmares, I felt good.
Now it's all over.
I tried to go on like I never knew you…
I’m awake but my world is half asleep…
It's like all the colors have slowly faded to grey. I used to take note of anything that was passing by my eyes, I used to listen to any sound. Now it's like I'm deaf and blind. I see but I don't watch. I hear but I don't listen. I feel empty, and the world around seems even more empty. People may jostle me in the bus or the street, I don't even feel it.
It's like the whole universe is in "pause" mode.
I pray for this heart to be unbroken,
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete…
People always said I was a happy guy, someone always laughing and joking, but compared to you I'm nothing. Since the first time I met you, when we were younger, you've always make me smile. When I got depressed or tired, you were next to me, being like a cheerleader behind a team, telling me jokes and one-liner so I would laugh again, pushing me to work harder to be the best one.
You made me how I am today.
Yet I'm nothing without you.
Voices tell me I should carry on,
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone…
I'm at work, finally, earlier than I should, but who cares. I'm not even in our changing room that I hear your voice in the hallway, so clear, so loud, so reassuring. Like an anchor to everything. Our team could burst in pieces that I would still be alright, as long as you're close to me.
I walk in, and the guys are all waving at me, Yasu giggling and Yoko messing with my hair. I smile, I wave back, I look at you. You smile, you look into my eyes, and yet you don't say anything. You don't have to, I know perfectly how you used to great me, how you will never great me the same way again. I see Hina's eyes on me, and when I look at him, he has this face telling me he's worried.
I know what he thinks. I should move on.
But I can't.
Baby, my baby, It’s written on your face,
You still wonder if we made a big mistake.
The day goes by the way it always does, slowly but steadily. No time to be bored, just enough to be comfortably busy. We have rehearsals, interviews, TV shows. In front of the cameras, I'm bouncy and talkative, yet once everything's filmed, I turn silent. If you're not talking to me, I don't talk either. Not that I don't want to. I just have no need to. When Tacchon asks me something, I nod. When Ryo talks to me, I nod again, with a little appreciative sound. But I don't talk. It's when I turn to look at you and I see you frowning that I realise that you noticed my lack of talking.
I can't help but blush and look away.
I can't help but hope.
I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go.
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone…
And I don't want to face it alone either. Before, I always said that the eight or seven of us was enough for me to feel surrounded, in a good way. Now I feel alone everytime you're in another room. If I don't see you around, it feels like the whole place is empty. I know it's not nice for our friends, but it's not like if I can choose what I feel.
It's only been a month since we decided to break up, and it seems like it's been years, decades, centuries. Too long in any way. I need you with me.
Sorry for loving you this much.
I tried to go on like I never knew you…
I’m awake but my world is half asleep…
I get dragged with the boys into a bar. Long time since we all went to drink together. We sit down, and you're next to me, shifting, uneasy. The look in Yoko's eyes tells me he planned this, but I can't be sure.
This evening passes by unnoticed. I've drank too many beers to actually count them, and I feel warm inside. Or maybe it's you next to me who makes me feel this way. Your leg is touching mine, and even if I try to rationalize and think that it's Yasu's fault - because he's too busy kissing Tacchon to actually see that he's squeezing you against me - even if I think about this, I can't help but feeling thrilled, because maybe you're the one wanting to be close to me. Maybe you still love me. Maybe we can start over.
The look on your face tells me I thought out loud. The sparkles in your eyes tell me that it's a good thing. Your hand moving to grab mine tells me we think the same thing.
I pray for this heart to be unbroken,
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete.
I wake up in an empty bed, and yet I can't bring myself to care. Maybe it's because of the delicious sent that fills the whole flat. Maybe it's because of you, walking in the bedroom with only your underwear and a t-shirt on you, hands full with a tray which itself is full with our breakfast.
You sit next to me on the bed, putting the tray between us, and your smile is so bright it could be the sun itself. You hug me, and I feel like the happiest guy on Earth. You kiss me and I could cry of happiness.
With or without you, I have to go on.
But I can't live without you.
.OWARI.
******
Title : Night Calls (one-shot)
Pairing : Yokoyama Yuu/Murakami Shingo/Maruyama Ryuhei + Sakurai Sho (OT4 \o/)
Rating : PG-15. for swearing.
Genre : Romance / humor / fluff / crack-ish.
NB : This one is for the Great Bunny Who Knows Everything, because the plot was half her idea. Because YokoMaruHina is pure win, and Sho loves the squirrels the boys. Really. Unbeta'ed, you know who to blame.
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It's nothing he could have helped, really. Maybe it's his babysitter side which shows up too much, maybe those guys are really kids in need of attention, or maybe it's simply his bad luck. Neither one of those reasons seems good enough, so he just lets go and watches sleepily as his cellphone blinks and vibrates on his side table.
He's not fully awake - being woken up at three in the morning isn't really in his top list of things to do, and yet it happens - but he still grabs his phone, almost making it fall to the floor while he sits up in his bed, and sighs heavily.
The screen writes "unknown" in big bold letters, but Sho knows perfectly who it is. He hopes they have a really good reason to call this late as he picks up.
There are giggles in the room. The lights are all off, except the small lamp on the floor, next to the huge bed, which gives just enough light to see what they're doing. The three boys are all sitting huddled together around one cellphone, a bit dizzy from the beer they drank earlier. A soft breeze comes from the open window, and the alarm clock displays 3:02 in red numbers.
Maru giggles, sharing a glance with Yoko who's literally bouncing on his seat, while Hina smiles and begins to dial. The oldest stops moving and mentions the youngest to make silence. Ryuhei puts a hand in front of his mouth to stop the sounds he's making, but it barely keeps the noises to a minimum. Shingo sighs and presses the "call" button, chewing his bottom lip in anticipation, before putting the sound loud enough so they will all hear. The ringtone can be heard once, twice, thrice, and then there's a click and they hold their breaths.
- Moshi moshi?
Sho hears nothing at first, and then there's a faint giggle in the background and some shuffling. He can almost picture them, waiting expectantly. They know that's he's in Osaka for a few days, so they couldn't help but call, of course. Not that he hates being awoken like that, because he knows that they miss him as much as he misses them, but still…
- Seriously guys, he sighs, I have work tomorrow you know!
There are some whispering, more silly giggling - he can tell it's Maru even if no one talked yet - and a loud laugh surprises him and makes him jump in his bed.
- Worst than kids…
Maru giggles madly as Hina bursts in laughter, and Yoko laughs too but smacks his friend.
- Damn Gorilla, you ruined the surprise!
Hina smacks him back, still laughing like mad, and Maru take benefit of their little fight to take the phone, shouting cheerfully :
- PAAAAAAN!!
Sho growls and takes the phone away from his ear. Really, this time they went too far. He has to wake up in less than three hours and he's never going to make it in time at this rate.
Sighing, he ends the call and puts his phone in silent mode, then gets back to sleep grumpily.
Tomorrow they'll pay for this. Really.
Ryuhei's eyes turn wide as the beep-beeps tell him that the barely older man did cut the line. He looks at the phone, puzzled and pouting, and Shingo and Yuu both stop their quarrel when they see the other boy's face. Yoko comes closer and asks:
- What's wrong?
Maru pouts even more.
- He hung up, the bassist whines. I couldn't even talk to him…
Hina frowns and takes the phone, checking, and sees that the call is ended indeed.
- We shouldn't have woken him up at this hour, he sighs. He's going to be pissed now.
Yoko growls and Hina hugs Maru who really looks sad by now. The older of the three Kanjanis takes back the cellphone and dials again, nearly infuriated. He hears it ring ten times, before getting on voicemail.
- What the fuck you think you're doing, he yells in the speaker, Maru-chan is sad now because of you! You selfish bastard! He just wanted to talk to you, like we all wanted to! I don't want to hear about you anymore!
Hina shrugs, knowing perfectly that right now it's the beer in Yuu's body which is talking and that in ten hours Yoko will have forgotten what he's currently saying and will hug Sho like if they didn't saw each other for a year - even it's only been a week since their last encounter; Maru, on the other side, is still pouting and whining in Hina's arms, seeking the older boy's affection, which is not hard to find in the end.
Finally, Yoko stops growling like a bear and leads both his friends to bed, the older ones taking care of the younger - and still slightly pouting - member.
It's eleven in the morning and the interviews have been cancelled, so Sho has nothing to do. Aiba asked him to go and get ramen, but the boy has other plans, really.
Said plans involve getting pissed at three boys who apparently had nothing better to do at three in the morning than waking him up and shout in the phone, not to talk about Yoko's message. Sho didn't understand everything because his older friend was seriously talking too fast and too loud, but he heard pretty neatly the words 'selfish bastard', and he doesn't like this, not at all. Might as well tell the boy face to face.
Getting inside their flat isn't difficult as he have a spare key, but the absence of noises makes him wonder if they worked or not today. He pads silently through the living-room and the corridor, before stopping in front of the bedroom. From the half-opened door, he can see them sleeping, still fully clothes, and he takes a deep breath before coming in.
Yet he stops dead in his track.
Maru is sleeping on his back, with his head on Yoko's chest, while his arms are around Hina's shoulder, gripping him tight. Yuu's arm is going above Maru's head, into Shingo's hairs, and the Hina's own hand is going past Maru waist to clutch at Yoko's t-shirt.
Sho looks at them, all entangled and peacefully sleeping, and decides that, really, he can't be mad at them, not when they look so cute. He goes to them cautiously, taking care not to wake neither of them, and kisses each one of them on the forehead before dashing to the kitchen.
Maybe the sent of breakfast would wake them, might as well try that out.
.OWARI.
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Also, to moka_n_waffles : your Subassan is almost done, eheh! ;D