fuck feeling sick!
last night: bar association with patrick, good talk. then headed to cent. park with a few others. later, fugazi video and poetry. i would say it was an overall good night, but i got really drunk.
today: felt pretty sick all day, almost had to go into work feeling hungover, but it didn't happen! slept for a long time at home, then woke up and studied for history. picked up matt and met nicole at barnes and noble. now back at matts, still feeling sick. i almost threw up, that was a close one...
on the other hand i realize what may be my greatest war in life.
dealing with how society has constructed a method to get almost every individual to live a prosaic life. this is what i hate most about the life, and about looking down the road into my future, how i have almost no chance of beating the bounderies that are constructed for me to live in... no. no. no! this is my life, im not falling into this sick blind nation.. the only reason anyone would is because they don't see it, or they were afraid to try and beat it. theres gotta be another way of living, and it has to be okay. i don't want to live a way that is okay because someone else says it is, no one needs to tell me or show me a way of living life where you can make it in the world.. i was born into a world, and didnt sign any papers or agreements in the process, so i should be able to live how i want, when i want, and where i want. FUCK YOUR LIFE AND YOUR WAY OF LIFE. i have just as much right to live the way i see fit as does a group of a million other people see fit for there "group". well i hate your way of living, this is not me... this is not for me, i was born into the wrong fucking world..whens the next train out of here.
today: felt pretty sick all day, almost had to go into work feeling hungover, but it didn't happen! slept for a long time at home, then woke up and studied for history. picked up matt and met nicole at barnes and noble. now back at matts, still feeling sick. i almost threw up, that was a close one...
on the other hand i realize what may be my greatest war in life.
dealing with how society has constructed a method to get almost every individual to live a prosaic life. this is what i hate most about the life, and about looking down the road into my future, how i have almost no chance of beating the bounderies that are constructed for me to live in... no. no. no! this is my life, im not falling into this sick blind nation.. the only reason anyone would is because they don't see it, or they were afraid to try and beat it. theres gotta be another way of living, and it has to be okay. i don't want to live a way that is okay because someone else says it is, no one needs to tell me or show me a way of living life where you can make it in the world.. i was born into a world, and didnt sign any papers or agreements in the process, so i should be able to live how i want, when i want, and where i want. FUCK YOUR LIFE AND YOUR WAY OF LIFE. i have just as much right to live the way i see fit as does a group of a million other people see fit for there "group". well i hate your way of living, this is not me... this is not for me, i was born into the wrong fucking world..whens the next train out of here.