Hrmm
Why do I waste my smiles on you
When I know you will never smile back again...
Ive come to the conclusion that I am very emotionally unstable. That must be why I rely on others so much, and its really something I have to get over. Because relying on others....then losing them...is going to be what kills me inside. Ive realized that all the friends I lost last year...each one of them, I was completely emotionally attached to. I told them everything, I cared about them, I felt needed... And you know what? I dont think they needed me half as much as I needed them...if even at all.
So now is the time to act.
Im officially NOT going through therapy anymore. No, I am not being 'cut off'. This is just a decision I made myself recently...after putting off so many appointments, I asked myself "Why am I putting them off?". The answer: I dont need them. I no longer need to rely on a psychiatrist, a woman I hardly know, to relieve my of my emotional stress. (although I am totally thankful for the time shes spent with me over the year)
Now this is obviously not something Id go broadcasting usually. But like I said, its officially over with. So it doesnt matter. Its all behind me, and so are the ones I once, and still, care so much for. They were more than willing to let go, and now, finaly....so am I.
No more smiles, hoping that you will smile back...
No more tears, hoping that you will cry with me...
No more questions, hoping that you will answer...
No more heartfelt apologies, that you will never accept.
( ps - sorry if you wasted ur time reading this Nicole. I know its way too emo for you :P )
When I know you will never smile back again...
Ive come to the conclusion that I am very emotionally unstable. That must be why I rely on others so much, and its really something I have to get over. Because relying on others....then losing them...is going to be what kills me inside. Ive realized that all the friends I lost last year...each one of them, I was completely emotionally attached to. I told them everything, I cared about them, I felt needed... And you know what? I dont think they needed me half as much as I needed them...if even at all.
So now is the time to act.
Im officially NOT going through therapy anymore. No, I am not being 'cut off'. This is just a decision I made myself recently...after putting off so many appointments, I asked myself "Why am I putting them off?". The answer: I dont need them. I no longer need to rely on a psychiatrist, a woman I hardly know, to relieve my of my emotional stress. (although I am totally thankful for the time shes spent with me over the year)
Now this is obviously not something Id go broadcasting usually. But like I said, its officially over with. So it doesnt matter. Its all behind me, and so are the ones I once, and still, care so much for. They were more than willing to let go, and now, finaly....so am I.
No more smiles, hoping that you will smile back...
No more tears, hoping that you will cry with me...
No more questions, hoping that you will answer...
No more heartfelt apologies, that you will never accept.
( ps - sorry if you wasted ur time reading this Nicole. I know its way too emo for you :P )