Vulnerability and Invulnerability
What makes you feel vulnerable and what makes you feel invulnerable?
When I'm happy I feel invulnerable -- when the sun is bright and I'm in a good mood and feeling whimsical and everyone around me is doing what they should be doing and isn't grumpy, then it's a rainbow party! And I'm queen of it all...or countess of it all, rather, but that's good too.
The vulnerability comes when things are going very badly, and no matter what I do I can't change it around. And people are angry and upset, or the world is shaking, or the castle is flooding or I find out that everything I assumed about someone or something is wrong...then I all want it to STOP! Just stop, stop, stop, stop, and yet there's nothing I can do to stop it. And I hate that, I hate everything about that feeling.
(Cross-posted to theatrical_muse)
When I'm happy I feel invulnerable -- when the sun is bright and I'm in a good mood and feeling whimsical and everyone around me is doing what they should be doing and isn't grumpy, then it's a rainbow party! And I'm queen of it all...or countess of it all, rather, but that's good too.
The vulnerability comes when things are going very badly, and no matter what I do I can't change it around. And people are angry and upset, or the world is shaking, or the castle is flooding or I find out that everything I assumed about someone or something is wrong...then I all want it to STOP! Just stop, stop, stop, stop, and yet there's nothing I can do to stop it. And I hate that, I hate everything about that feeling.
(Cross-posted to theatrical_muse)