I want to be your Aficionado

[i_am_danger]

I'm tired. As such, this will be a tired, most likely emo sounding post.

Sometimes, I don't want to be me. It's not fun. I clash with my own personality. I open my mouth and hate the words that spill out. I do things that I know will make me mad later and then do them anyway. I keep kicking myself, it seems, just to prove to myself that I still know how to screw things up. I'm too realistic and then totally unrealistic, all at the same time. I'm hyperactive and bored. I'm confident and scared.

And other times? I'm the coolest mother fucker that ever hit this earth. And you should count your lucky stars that you know me.

.....The social scene and I, we get along just fine.